Domitkat

Growing up my family never expressed how we felt through speech, or even really hugged eachother or comforted eachother in that sense. I know my parents love me, and I have told my sister I love her in a letter I once wrote to her, but I can’t seem to get over the hurdle of telling my parents I love them. My mom recently started saying it and I actually feel uncomfortable because I don;t respond back and I do love her and I know she probabaly feels bad that she doesn’t hear it back. I think because If I were to say it back, the response I would get, I feel like a big deal would be made. I idealize my father and I know he knows I love him but we don;t express thigns like that to eachother – more of in actions. The things he does and how he treats me, I know he truely loves me. Cooking has always been his way of expressing his feelings to us – his way of showing he cares and wants to take care of the family and I. I constantly think about if something would happen to one or both my parents. If one of them were to pass away and I never got to say I Love You. I know they know.. but I think I would still feel bad that I never actually verbally expressed myself to the people that matter the most to me. (especially when I can tell other people that I love them)