it was so much fun! I was so nervous! I thought I was gonna throw up!I felt so fat,and dumpy!and like an ass while I was on the stage.all the other models had experiance being on stage, and seemed so professional!- felt like I was running across the stage, and didn’t do my turns and stops right! But everybody told meI was great.The designer said she was gonna call me back to do her next show! Hopefully I will be less nervous, and spend more time on the stage and my outfit will be sexyer!
DoveVader's Life List
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1. To live instead of exist
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2. redesign myself
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3. Be Myself Again
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4. Write 100 things I love about My Boyfriend.
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5. Move back to California
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6. never apologize for being me
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7. stop collecting art supplies and start creating art
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8. do more art
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9. figure out what i want to do
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10. question each expenditure of time or money, asking myself if this choice makes me closer to or more distant from who and what I want to be
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11. believe that I can do anything I put my mind to
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12. not worry about what others think of me
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13. be fabulous
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14. be a pin up model
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15. stay motivated
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16. stop dreaming and start doing these things
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17. stop procrastinating
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18. stop wasting time
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19. Never grow up.
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20. make a good living from creative pursuits
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21. Have adventures
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22. go to bed earlier. and get up earlier.
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23. stop being scared to drive on freeways
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24. Quit thinking I think too much and embrace my thought process
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25. List 100 things I love about my daughter
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26. Stop resenting my parents
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27. stop being such a pinch-penny.
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28. go to the chiropractor regularly
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29. stop being depressed
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30. Be Tiny Turtle!!!!
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31. Write 100 things I love about my Son
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32. be a good mother
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I’ve done alot of photo shoots, and I’m doing a fasion show this saturday. I’m really excited! I still wish I could make some money doing this, but I’m having fun, and it makes me feel really good about myself! So I guess it isnt for money… its for myself, and thats cool too.
having another baby has made me really concious of how jaded and old i got! He is so amazing, and watching him grow and change and learn new things every day, really makes me happy. We play all day, and have so much fun in the toy section. I love buying toys. I remember when I had my daughter i couldnt wait for her to be old enough to play barbies with her. Then of course I was like…geeze I dont wanna play barbies right now, after the 100th time! So I have made a pact with myself to never be so “busy” doing grown up crap, that I dont have time, or think that i have better things to do than play with him! He is really keeping me young, and making life so fun and seeing things from a beautiful newness perspective. SOOOOOOOOOOO wonderful!Playing and being silly again!


