I'm doing 43 things
I need this. I need this. I need this. I need this. I need this. I need this. It takes one who has been in ruins to understand ruins.
DreamAllAfternoon's Life List
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2. FInd meaning in this life of mine.
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3. Find a reason to stay alive.
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4. Fix myself. Fix myself. Fix myself. Fix myself. Fix myself. Fix myself.
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5. turn to stone
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6. Be given a place to stay in the most soul-gripping, seductive surroundings, where I can be who I was meant to be, and affect those who I was meant to know and be known by.
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7. Things are going to be okay.
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8. do things for others. stop living only for myself.
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9. Find and create an identity for myself.
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10. Portion my life out with useful things that I love.
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11. Need clarity. And peace and order in my thoughts.
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12. If you can't live in the world, find a world you can live in. And thrive there.
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13. express myself better
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14. Solidly learn one good song on the piano. Impress people with my piano skills.
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15. stop hating myself
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16. be crazy. as in finally just give up caring what other people think. be happy on my own. as myself. whatever that is.
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17. Fill my life with things that are comforting and deeply nourishing for me alone. If that's not good enough for other people, then so be it.
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18. live like grass
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19. If you love something set it free, if it comes back to you it's yours, if it doesn't it never was
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20. Build deep trust with those who love me and care about me
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21. embrace order and find inner peace
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22. Be more observant
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23. Continually love my boyfriend.
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24. move
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25. do
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26. not be so alone in the world.
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27. Create a place of healing for other people.
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28. Die or survive
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29. Go somewhere magical, and stay there for just the right time.
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30. Embrace all of the darkness that I am.
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31. Enchant you.
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32. do the splits
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33. Find the right seed with the right friend to make things grow again.
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34. feel understood on a deep level
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35. find my voice
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36. Beat my depression
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37. live in a village
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38. List 100 reasons why I love/appreciate my significant other
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39. create a home of love and light
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40. Practice Discipline
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41. Seduce, or mystify, or stun.
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42. Conquer the world, or at least my world, with the most mischevious and delightful friend in the world, who adores me beyond reason, and who I would lay down and die for.
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43. show up at the airport with a bag and a passport and take the first flight available
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How I did it
It made me
Content 
How I did it: I have found a real connection. It may stay as it is, it may lessen, it may not grow anymore than this. But it has been a good thing for me. And I feel grateful. Read how I did it…
It made me
Unsatisfied 
How I did it: I have longed to run away for such a long time. Finally, I've reached a point where I don't feel that I need to escape anymore. Exactly where I am, this is where I want to be. Some people just need to get away. And some people, despite the obstacles they are facing, just need to stay. I want to see how my life is going to go here. I want to apply myself to this experience I am currently having.&… Read how I did it…
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Candelight in all the homes, a hilltop of twinkling lights, sloping downward to the heart of the town.
Will I ever care again? I am afraid not. I am weak,and not every human is meant to succeed. Certainly not I. Certainly not when one lacks even a glint of the desire to. Some plants grow and prosper. Other glorious, meant to be beautiful flowers wither, before they even smelled sweet once. They’ve gone sour before they even left the bud, and are too damaged to ever respond to sunlight. Normal flowers grow towards the sun. But I would rather hide and stay inside my pea-sized world, tightly sealed from anything beyond my own horrid deterioration.
Love, your little would be rose.
