DrkKnight07

Yeah so this sounds pretty good to me. Starting a year ago i started keeping track of all the movies I watched. 2007 I have currently watched about 75 movies. So I hope I can bring it a step up in 2008.

Well I have never been very fit except when I played football and Hockey. So instead of just sitting around and doing nothing, i’m gonna make things happen. I’m going to start running everyday and watch what I eat. then i’ll go to the gym and lift weights 3-4 times a week. I’m going to try and make my first goal small. Accomplish all that I said above^{^} this week.

It was a little over a year ago that I had my first girlfriend. It took little time at all for me to fall completely in love with her. It was such a strange feeling to me. Before her, physical things were important to me and that’s how I based my happiness. But when I found her, I realized how meaningless things are. Sure she would say she wasn’t pretty or a good person sometimes. But to me…...I truly believed she was perfect in every way. We were best friends in the world. I couldn’t stand being away from her and every time we were together things were better. But I was immature. I didn’t know how to handle a real relationship. And so we fought. It happened alot but every time we did it was just because I was afraid of loosing the one I loved. We were going out for about a year when she broke up with me. At first I was in complete denial and then it hit me like a truck. I had never wanted to stop living more in my life then in that moment. But things got worse. After a week she was back with her ex boyfriend. I couldn’t believe it! The summer passed and my heart had been torn out of my chest. Yet things got even worse. She had lost her virginity to him. I respected her so much and never took it away from her. Yet she did it a little over a month after being with me. Then she got engaged to him. ............17 years old…......and engaged. So now everyday during class I see the ring on her figure and it reflects the pain in my heart. People say I should be happy for her. I will never be. I hate her and her fucking finance! More hate then anything I have ever felt. How can I ever give someone all of my love ever again? How could I possibly ever get over this or move on when I know it could happen again. The story of my life. Fucked over and so sad…