DrowninginBoredom

I think there is something wrong with me. I created a 43 account in June and I put “make friends” on my to do list… I still haven’t done it, it’s as if I was not meant to have friends. Haha yeah, I’m always trying to blame things on someone/something else. I think I have to high of expectations, I might have a really good convo. with someone and that’s where it ends, I either don’t want to talk to them again cause they rubbed me the wrong way or I can’t work up the nerve to say “Hey you’re cool, I’d love to talk to ya again!”(well maybe not those words exactly) but at home I’m this take no shit kinda gal but as soon as you put me in front of people that I don’t know or barely know I can be this shy stuttering little freak!

Wow… that felt good, haha I guess I really needed to just vent, ok going back to the real world now, thanks for listening

I have no motivation what so ever, I mean I WANT to lose weight but I can’t make myself change.
Last year I lost 20 pounds and managed(sp?) to keep it off for the longest time and then I gained it all back plus a little more.
Any ideas on how to get and stay motivated?

Probably wont happen for me until I get out more… and maybe meet someone, anyone in that matter, haven’t had a friend in years… wow, I do need to get out more