Dudie1994

I was wondering if someone who speaks English and Spanish (or Dutch and Spanish, because i’m from Holland) would like to be my ‘penpal’.
Over IM or e-mail. My interest are -fashion -the beach -everything that has something to do with the summer -music (hiphop, r&b, reggae, pop, a little rock) -having a lot of fun (: -learning Spanish. Contact me!

She was my best friend for 10 years. 11 years, this year.
I told her everything, she told me everything.
We shared everything. She was the number one person i never wanted to lose after my mom. I don’t say all of this is her fault, but i know for sure this isn’t my fault. It’s just all very hard and sometimes if i’m thinking about my future, i’m so scared it will never be okay between us, and i can’t imagine not being with her in the future, because she’s my everything :’(

here’s what happened:
Well, the fight that we have right now, i call it the big fight.
Before this big fight we had a lot of arguments and at some moments it was very awkward between us. It started when Lisa (that’s the BFF) had this other close friend, and i’m really not a jealous person, but Nadia (the close friend from Lisa) didn’t like me for no reason, she didn’t even know who i was, but she disliked me. So i started to think okay this Nadiagirl is a weird person…
So Nadia did a few things including calling me fat (she’d never seen me in real life!) and i talked about this with Lisa and she said she understood me and said she started to dislike Nadia too. But after a while Lisa changed her mind and became really close with Nadia and i kept telling Lisa i hated Nadia. So yeah, after a while we had a fight about this, but 2 weeks later I made it up with her because i missed her so much. So things went well for a week between Lisa and me. She had a boyfriend for a few months and i liked him, he’d become a good friend of me too. But because i didn’t saw Lisa so much because she lives about 10 kilometers from me and we’re in different years at school, we decided to see each other in the lunchbreaks at school. At first this went well, but after a little while she didn’t do anything else than kissing with her boyfriend in those lunchbreaks. I kinda understood, because they were really in love. But she seriously forgot me for about 20 times! And everytime i said something about it, she said ‘oh sweety, i’m sorry i won’t do it again, i promiss!’. But she did it over and over. Then we had holidays for one week and i we planned a sleepover at Lisa’s place. The day before the sleepover, i texted her about tomorrow, because i didn’t hear anything from her for a few days. She texted back: honey <3 no, tomorrow i’m still at Nadia’s place, i sleepover at hers tonight (: xoxo. I was really angry at that moment and i got on IM and i asked her what the hell this was. She didn’t know what to say and from that moment we had the big fight until now, 2 and a half month later (yeah, that’s really long and i felt like a year).
I talked to another good friend of her, Vicky.
I said i wanted to make it up with Lisa and Vicky wanted to help me.
But because Lisa blocked me on IM and she didn’t return textmessages i sent her, Vicky talked to Lisa. But Lisa kept avoiding anything Vicky asked about me and if she missed me. I’m really depressed the last days, from the moment Vicky told me this.
She said she was going to talk with Lisa when she saw her (that’s in a week), instead of over IM. I really hope things are going to be okay, but i doubt it…

PS.The names i used are not the real names of the people, because i don’t want them to read this and think ‘omg this is about me’ :p