Dutchieman

me and my ex had an issue with her friend and her mother that caused us to break up. it made us stop talking for over 2 months then she came back sayin she loved me and only me even though she was with another guy less then a week after we stoped talking. me like the dumass i am i let her start to come back and we were gonna try to work things out. it seemed that se could fix what she did with her mom and her friend so when she realized it it all became my fault her comeing back the problems we had all of it. yet when she came back she told me everything was on her and it was her fault she was sry. so i cut it off and talk her to just not call me anymore. i still don’t know if it was the right thing to do but i’m tird of being walked on. :-(

I’m 23 yrs old and other then NY ,cause I live there, I’ve only been to NJ and Mass other the that it took me till I was 22 to goto Mexico and I loved every second of it. The reason I could never go places like that was because my mother was very sick growing up and couldn’t really do much. We got a few trips to the beach in over the summers but considering the fact that it was kinda like a second home to us it wasn’t really like a vacation, more like hanging out in the back yard with friends except we were on our boat. Anyway I lost my mother Fed 13th of 07’, and when I did I became a mental wreck and decided to take every penny I had and goto Mexico for 10 days alone I even left my g/f at the time. (we’re not together anymore…) But I had the time of my life and ever since I’ve wanted nothing more then to go back. So from now on I’m gonna save as much as I can so when ever I want to just get up and go somewhere I can just pack up go online make the arrangements and leave without even thinking about it.

I’m not what most would consider good with people. I have a very hard time trusting after all I’ve been through in past relationships. So I’m not always very uncomfortable around people when I feel like their not on my level, not that I put myself above everyone else just the level of understanding. So what I’m going to try to do is put the past behind me and move on and I guess try some new things and just see what happens.