I think i kind of started again im going to try not to smoke today:( and take it day by day again back to day one.
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1. Quit Smoking
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2. learn french
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3. lose weight
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4. Save money
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5. Spend less time fooling around on the net and more time actually working
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6. spend money more wisely
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7. lose my tummy
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8. get rid of all my clutter
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9. Take more photos
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10. clean my room
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11. wake up when my alarm clock goes off
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12. enjoy the second quarter of 2008 by having one new and fulfilling experience in April, May, and June. Woo Hoo!
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13. expand my vocabulary
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14. react with grace and patience in every situation
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15. grow my hair
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16. live passionately
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17. understand nietzsche
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18. Learn to budget
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19. be a better person
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20. leave everything a little better than i found it
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21. drink more water
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22. read sartre's works in their entirety
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23. write a book
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24. Bitch Less
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25. create a list of 100 must-read books and read them.
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26. pay off my consumer debt
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my new and fulfilling experience for april will be teaching my six year old cousin who has difficulty learning how to read. It shall be both new and obviously very rewarding can not wait. Although i do intend to do many impulsive things along the way :D
Bring it on April
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Haha what an unexpected turn my impulsive decision making has taken. I quit my job so i will be an unemployed student completely broke…no more pretty clothes and shoes but the thing is…Today i had 3 cigarettes and i do not fell guilty at all. But hear me out today i realized why i probably started in the first place. To make myself more socially present (if that makes sense) I smoked because i met this really cool girl and we were outside chatting so i ponced. then i went back outside to ‘smoke’ but really wanted to check to see if the man i like was there and the third again was to not feel left out in a conversation. I know i am a complete LOSER hahaha but i tell you what i don’t feel guilty because i see have no real desire to smoke it is a desire to be accepted. That is after all what all us smokers secretly want , to belong, and when we smoke we do we are smokers. Alas, one day hopefully we shall all be ex-smokers.
Is it wrong to not feel guilty because you never enjoyed something? That’s how i feel i didn’t enjoy smoking today i just did it ad i didn’t feel bad because it never felt good.
Do i start counting again?
