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I just dropped out of uni. I don’t know how I’m feeling exactly. I’m terrified and excited at the same time. I have no idea where to go or what to do but I’m so excited to find out.
I know I should’ve probably thought of a plan before quitting, and I know that I could’ve waited another month till the term is over, and I know that I will probably regret this later,...
but I just couldn’t wait any longer. I was suffocating!
Not because it was hard, it wasn’t, not because I didn’t fit in, I had and still have the most amazing friends there, but I felt like I was wasting my time.
I was just doing it to buy me more time to think about what I really want to do. But in fact it was pulling me further from what I want. I didn’t have the time to reflect or search for what I want, and I was starting to settle for what I don’t want. And I knew that the longer I wait the harder it’ll get.
I just need some time off to explore new things, to figure out what I really want. I know I can’t afford to do that for long, but I think a couple of months wont hurt.
I’m still young and I already have my Bachelor’s degree. I don’t need a Master’s degree (at least not in something I’m not passionate about).
IF, and I hope I won’t, but IF the day comes when I regret this decision I could always register again. It’s not the end of the world.
I still haven’t told anyone about this. I still can’t believe I actually did it. Writing this now is making it real. Wow I’m really terrified. And excited. And… I don’t know, I’m just filled with all sorts of emotions…
Step 2: tell my parents.
