Eddee

gun pointed at me, the barrel on my temple, cocked and ready to blow my mind, each bullet an opportunity to pierce my thoughts…

“You should be the change that you want to see in the world.” – Mahatma Gandhi.

we finally finished the mural. its the first ever in college and i was part of it! heres a photo, its behind those brick pillars. it felt so good signning it at the end.

right now im in college, my first year, and my dreams are coming true. im vice president of an art fraternity, im painting a mural right now, i just got a scholarship, and im applying for another one. well anyways heres a drawing im going to submit. as for the fraternity, we’ll be having work shops, and maybe that will encourage somebody who wants to get involved in art.

well here is my first pastel drawing ever. it was for my drawing 2 class, i thought it was going to be difficult but it ended up feeling easy. i was inspired heheh. ok, enjoy, feel free to comment.

THE STARS

As I’m sitting here
Outside on the back of my truck
The dark sky shines so bright
Looking for a shooting star without luck
Darkness is caressed by the moonlight
What’s wrong my life I ask?
As I keep looking at the stars I wonder
When was the last time I saw the night sky?
Those are some questions I never ponder
I mean they have always been there
But we take them for granted
Like most things in life I’ve ignored
Never noticed the simple things
Always the stupid shit I observed
Too many feelings disregarding
I open myself underneath the stars
I open my mind, my heart, my soul
And I reveal all of my scars
Wounds so deep down into my core
I’m not as strong as I thought I was
Yet I don’t feel troubled anymore…

maybe i should stop calling them when i’m drunk…

it ain’t fair. i mean, i’m drunk, if i say no i’m fucked, because kids and drunks always tell the truth, and if i say yes, i’m still fucked…

FUCK X-BOX 360, FUCK PLAYSTATION 3, I WANT AN OLD SCHOOL NINTENDO.

i mean, you get to see people living different cultures, you learn from that, you learn to apreciate things they apreciate that in your own culture you may not.

well right now i’m in college, i’m 20 years old, its my first semester, and things are going pretty smootly. i’m an art major, i’m taking 4 art classes right now, i’ll post some artwork whenever i can. i’m finally making my dreams come true.

i mean, she has put up with a lot of bullshit, she has to put up with me, she’s sacrificed a lot for me and my sisters. i’m always fighting with her, and if it isn’t me, it’s my sisters. she lost her husband in 2001, my dad. she lost her soulmate, and its hard raising 2 brothers and 1 sister, my other 2 sisters are already married and have children, but one of them lost her husband too. my mom has high blood pressure, she’s always worried bout my sisters, she doesn’t really worry about me, because she knows i can handle things myself. i owe her EVERYTHING.

a guitar. i would so love to play guitar, it would be fucking awesome. well i bought this videogame, guitar hero for ps2, and its fucking badass. it’s basically a music videogame with a guitar for a controller, the notes come down at you, and then you have to play them. its so addicting. oh and i’m learning how to play a real guitar, its easier on the game heheh.

everybody in this world has a purpose in life, they were created for something, sometimes it comes out naturally, other times you have to look for it, i’m still not sure what’s my purpose in life, but i think i was brought to this world to help people, anyway i can, i like helping people, and you don’t really have to do a lot to accomplish that, you just gotta be there for the people you love, and you’ll see how much a difference you make in their world.

damn i love her, i know i know, but damn she’s beautiful and talented. i saw pulp fiction, thought she was so cool, then saw her in batman and robin, which sucked, but damn she looked so hot, and then, her greatest movie, kill bill, i saw her and i fell in love.