So, this weekend is the 4th of July. I’m going to a cabin with my old bf and his friends. I don’t want it to seem too much like a date, so I invited my sister to come with me. We are driving up separately from M and leaving a day early becuz my sis has to work Sunday. I hope we have fun. I’m a little nervous about hanging out overnight with M and his friends. I just don’t want him to assume I’ll stay with him. That’s the whole reason I am bringing my sis…she’ll be a good buffer. I just hope it’s a fun weekend to relax, enjoy the weather and get away from work. We’ll see how it goes.
Jul 01, 2008, 10:37AM PDT | 1 comment
my old bf from high school called me the other day. we have known each other for years…talk occassionally but haven’t hung out in awhile. i wonder if something will happen between us. the best relationships always start out as friendships, and we’re pretty good friends. we’ve hung out twice since he called me up, and i had a good time both nights. i think he likes me a lot, but i’m not sure if he’s the one for me. he’s such a good friend that it’s hard to think of him as something more. I know i’ve hurt him in the past, so i don’t want to do that to him again. he’s changed for the better…still likes to party, but has a good job and is really sweet. he seems to care about me a lot. it’s almost shocking how nice he is (shocking i guess becuz, unfortunately, i’m so used to jerks—particularly one jerk). hmmm. i think i just need to let it happen. no forcing things. no predictions. no trying to convince myself to like him. just let it be and see how it goes. one day i’ll meet “the one”...maybe it’s him…and maybe not.
Jun 18, 2008, 02:19PM PDT | 1 cheer | 0 comments
I still talk to him…probably shouldn’t do this. But he sure is making it easier to not love him this week. I find myself grinding my teeth if i think of him.
Jun 18, 2008, 02:08PM PDT | 0 comments
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