Ellie_Rea

We are not on bad terms but we could be closer. I have some issues with my older brother and he has issues with me. We seem to get along but I wish it was organic. My little brother is from my dads second (or third marriage but who’s counting) I am fifteen years older than him. I am concerned that we will never really get to know each other or be truly close.

I don’t know how to do this. Family and friends are important I need to hang onto the little bit I have.

I am rather mopey at times and I need to be happier. I have a few things in life that make me want to live and not just “live” but really enjoy living. I know of two things now off the top of my head one being my best friend and lover, and the other is making good grades in school.

I’ll really think about it and the best part is through making this list I will begin to focus on all the good things that my life offers me. I have more good things in my life than I think sometimes..I just have to look for them.

Just another couple of months and I’ll be out. Of course I’m going away to school but I’m still GOING AWAY. I just hope I can make it.