I'm doing 6 things
Since my bout with depression some time ago I set this one up as a goal. It’s one of the main things that was causing me to feel frustrated with the status quo of things in my life. But I have instead started to identify what is unique in my life, what I want to work on, and how much I like the life I am living.
Eventually I found out that I was trying to be many different things at the same time, far too many.
They were things that a lot of my friends were very good at but not just because it came naturally to them or because they were better in life than I was, they were just skills and achievements that they had acquired through long practice and dedication.
All of those could be found in things I was already doing, but that my friends were not, and the product of their interests rather than their sole talents.
Epilef's Life List
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1. stop comparing myself to others
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2. Learn the Guitar
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3. Ride a Camel
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4. Watch the top 250 movies on the Internet Movie Database
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5. Swim with dolphins
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6. identify 100 things that make me happy.
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How I did it: It took a lot of commitment to reading anything and everything that could help, books, self visualization excercises and other things that I used to see as self-help mumbo jumbo, but among them you can find some serious gems. If anyone wants to get any of the books drop me a line I'll let you know which ones were the good ones (in my opinion). Read how I did it…
How I did it: Talking always helps, especially to close friends. Starting to change shared habits and routines. Then moving onto redeiscovering the things that I liked and thus living my life how I wanted without her. Always keep in mind that you're stronger than you realize and it there is always a way through, it takes time and hard work. Read how I did it…
Right now I’m dead in the middle of it. I have talked about it left and right, am going to therapy, and I’m trying to get my life back together. I lost all sense of self in the relationship, and I know she loved me, I know I love her, I do still, but she blames me for breaking up. I know I made mistakes, some of them repeatedly, but I was never unfaithful or made her second in my mind. I just let my insecurities get the best of me and took it out on her. But she never resolved that with me. She never gave me a hint she just decided one day she did not want to be with me. Right now she’s getting on with her life. I could not be happier to see her happy. And at the same time my heart shatters to think she will be THAT happy and share it with someone else. Because that is what I woke up to do every day I was with her. I was just too slow to realize how.
But after all, and though I still blame myself a relationship is made of 2, and it cannot be all m fault. I just hope that time heals this wounds, like it has hers, and I hope one day I am proud of who I am instead of blaming myself. The career can wait a bit. I need to be ok alone first, I keep qworking hard every single day, but I need to find joy in life again. I am lost because I forgot what that was when you’re on your own. I thinkof happy moments as something to share, and to have no one special to share those moments with tears me inside.
Time will tell, and I understand fully what you’re talking about. I’m keeping my fingers crossed for you and wish you peace and happiness. If you have gotten over it and have any advice feel free to let me know. I could sure use some.
