Estarien

Regrettably, I’ve begun slacking off on my weekly lessons. In the past month I’ve been through a bit of an emotional turmoil, being turned out of my maternal house. I now reside with my father’s elder sister in the northern-central part of Singapore.

The distance is decidedly longer, and the journey back to my music school takes up to an hour and a half, at least. Due to my rather undisciplined nature, I invariably got there late, or even when the lesson ended. I know my teacher (just a year or so older than me!) is a tad disappointed, so I resolve to go on time, even early, this week.

One day I will be able to play with grace and confidence, like some of you out there…

Moving away from what I’ve been brought up to recognize as the truth isn’t easy- that much I’ve found out…

I’ve yet to approach my mum with the idea of me going to the US, dropping my Pre-Uni education and heading straight into a university in the US

The university in question is La Universidad Interamericana de Puerto Rico. It is in Puerto Rico, close to where my boyfriend lives, and my GCE ‘O’ level credit is enough to get me into a few courses… I’m looking at psychology

Thing is, although me and my boyfriend (and his mother) have figured out the stuff we need, ie visas and all, I still haven’t asked my mother about it. There’s been an iron wall between us now, for about a month or so, and it doesn’t look set to end anytime soon.

I’m going to be 17 in August, and hence I still need her permission if I wish to go overseas for further education. Also, I’d have to ask if she would consider paying for the trip and the first fees for the first few months if possible from the education fund that she already has been investing into. It was meant for me to further my education as far as it can go, but as it is my mother… meh. Weird characters, and I don’t exactly relish the thought of going to speak to her about it.

The school terms usually start in July, but I think for certain courses it starts in Oct, or around there.

We’re sorting out the load of information we have now, and I’m going to the Embassy in 2 days, to find out more. I pray that our plan succeeds- I don’t want to remain here, now that I’ve had the chance to fly.

I’m on the first year of my 3year ‘A’-level course, and already have an ‘O’-level certificate as the minimal education backup

The original plan was for me to continue on to a local university, staying with my family and get a usual local Singaporean life but noooo Things have taken quite a different turn.

I may end up escaping from the Singaporean education system earlier than expected, but that would mean cutting short my ‘A’-level course. I would go to Puerto Rico, and since I’ve heard not-exactly-positive things about high school there, I may choose to study online, then head for UPR (or some other university).

What I’m afraid of is that I would lose this desire to advance in my education when I study online.. I’m not looking to be a professional in the scientific/mathematical/logica fields, thank goodness, but an education is important in everything that you want to achieve in life, non? (:

And so, here’s to me, and remembering to further my education in every way possible, under any circumstances.