I'm doing 40 things
it seemed like an achievable number one, but i’ve realized i prefer to stick post-its throughout the anthologies rather than list them here…
EstherGreenwood's Life List
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1. document everything that makes me happy
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2. never forget who i used to be
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3. start doing things for myself
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4. stop hating myself and my sister
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5. take my medicine for 10 consecutive days
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6. start caring about the things i used to care about
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7. teach like brad f.
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8. be my own sam who finds andrew or my own dawn who finds tim
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9. find out what is wrong with my sewing machine and fix it
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10. love and be loved
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11. learn everything to become a doctor, but never become one
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12. learn to speak middle english
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13. buy a home before i'm 22
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14. drive to california
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15. buy a bike
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16. get rid of everything i don't use
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17. lose weight
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18. be ambidextrous
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19. learn about quantum physics
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20. learn about the stock market
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21. get married
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22. learn one impressive dance
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23. take more care in my appearance
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24. take dulcimer lessons again
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25. take my sister to that dance club in baltimore
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26. grow my hair longish
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27. make something on a pottery wheel
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28. build a tree house
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29. work in a used book store
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30. build a swimming pool
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31. move far away from here
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32. learn how to drive a motorcycle
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33. find a boy to send hand-written letters
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34. stick with the 30/30 plan
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35. read a book and crack the spine on purpose
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36. Wish Librarian the very happiest birthday possible today!
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37. beat my depression
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38. go to the buffalo exchange in philly
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39. have a great summer
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40. payback all my debts
1 person
Recent entries
1. go back to pitt
2. embroider tee-shirts
3. play the hammered dulcimer
4. write new songs
5. write new stories
2-5 i’ve been doing practically since i was an infant. all of these things would make me happy.
i’m calling out of work tomorrow. actually today. i can’t fucking sleep at night. i feel so sad and lonely and i really think this medicine is wrong for me because it feels like my heart is beating out of my chest. i can’t stop thinking and i miss him so fucking much and i keep crying but not crying i think because of the medicine but my entire life everyone has told me that crying’s good but it wasn’t for me. crying was never a good thing especially lately when i couldn’t stop. but at least crying tired me out and i could sleep at night. i hate that it effects be so much. i hate that i can’t do most of the things that i used to love because i get too tired or can’t concentrate. i hate that she’s down the hallway from me now. that alone makes me more upset than i can describe. but most of all, i hate myself for being so fucking stupid and so fucking much like myself.
