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Natasha Malinova




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Natasha Malinova's Life List

  2. 1. Believe in myself
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  3. 2. Become a Doctor
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  4. 3. be more confident
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  5. 4. marry the love of my life, and stay married, and live happily ever after
    		141 people
  6. 5. stop lying
    		907 people
  7. 6. stop procrastinating
    		26,999 people
  8. 7. save lives
    		121 people
  9. 8. stop being jealous
    		671 people
  10. 9. accept myself
    		580 people
  11. 10. improve my concentration
    		172 people
  12. 11. convince someone to quit smoking
    		28 people
  13. 12. Stress less
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  14. 13. Take more pictures
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  15. 14. complain less
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  16. 15. stop biting my nails
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  17. 16. stop being so insecure
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  18. 17. stop binge-eating
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  19. 18. tone my body
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  20. 19. stop swearing so much
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  21. 20. Learn to play 'The Heart Asks Pleasure First' properly
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  22. 21. bungee jump
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  23. 22. see the northern lights
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  24. 23. Send a message in a bottle
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  25. 24. Travel alone
    		370 people
  26. 25. Grow my hair out
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  27. 26. run a 10K
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  28. 27. own a bathtub with feet
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  29. 28. Design and build my own house
    		1,502 people
  30. 29. ride a blimp
    		18 people
  31. 30. Save money
    		14,744 people
Recent entries
have no regrets
Impossible... 2 years ago

I’ll never be able to fulfil this goal now.

If I was not a coward, one more person might be alive today. If I hadn’t panicked and had given a stranger first aid immediately when we arrived at the scene then he might still be alive. I found out later on the news that he had been a father – no matter how hard I try, I know I will never be able to forgive myself this.

I was the only one who could have helped him, and I failed.

May 20, 2007, 06:33AM PDT | 1 comment


stop thinking about "him" (read all 5 entries…)
Surprise, surprise, he's back... 2 years ago

Can I not get him out of my head simply because he represents something that I’m missing in my current relationship? Like security? This feels really stupid – why am I not able to keep myself under control?

Apr 17, 2007, 10:24AM PDT | 0 comments


let him go
Untitled 2 years ago

I don’t know yet if this is the right thing to do.

I love him, and can’t bear to face the world without him to laugh about it all, without him to help me understand everything.

But if he can’t decide if he loves me or not and whether we have a future, after four and a half fantastic happy years…maybe something has to be done.

“If you love something, let it go. If it comes back to you, its yours forever. If it doesn’t, then it was never meant to be.”

Eventually I guess I should do this. I just need to be brave enough (or just wait until he stops being terrified of admitting that he has feelings).

Apr 02, 2007, 03:21PM PDT | 0 comments


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lose 20 lbs as quickly as possible! get another tattoo learn Swedish Learn to play a musical instrument be a holiday rep be a fashion designer french kiss Get back with my ex make a xanga layout StaticDiamond wants to improve my spanish read Transmetropolitan Make lots of worry dolls lucid dream get paid to write stories all day get stronger go on a cruise bigboehmboy wants to watch the imdb 100 best movies make my own clothes renew my canadian passport identify 100 things that make me happy (besides money) not worry about what others think of me witness the end of IE make my own prom dress graduate high school Practice "And How Am I Like This?" when judgementalism, impatience or annoyance raise their smug heads learn more about wine Nataleo wants to receive 50 postcards from postcrossing speak another language fluently
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