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Natasha Malinova




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  2. 1. Believe in myself
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  3. 2. Become a Doctor
    1 cheer     		1,810 people
  4. 3. be more confident
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  5. 4. marry the love of my life, and stay married, and live happily ever after
    		136 people
  6. 5. stop lying
    		980 people
  7. 6. stop procrastinating
    		30,014 people
  8. 7. save lives
    		137 people
  9. 8. stop being jealous
    		722 people
  10. 9. accept myself
    		644 people
  11. 10. improve my concentration
    		175 people
  12. 11. convince someone to quit smoking
    		29 people
  13. 12. Stress less
    		1,064 people
  14. 13. Take more pictures
    1 cheer     		15,357 people
  15. 14. complain less
    		1,104 people
  16. 15. stop biting my nails
    		7,334 people
  17. 16. stop being so insecure
    1 cheer     		416 people
  18. 17. stop binge-eating
    		669 people
  19. 18. tone my body
    		837 people
  20. 19. stop swearing so much
    		134 people
  21. 20. Learn to play 'The Heart Asks Pleasure First' properly
    1 entry     		97 people
  22. 21. bungee jump
    1 cheer     		3,908 people
  23. 22. see the northern lights
    		18,962 people
  24. 23. Send a message in a bottle
    		4,128 people
  25. 24. Travel alone
    		400 people
  26. 25. Grow my hair out
    		1,848 people
  27. 26. run a 10K
    		1,131 people
  28. 27. own a bathtub with feet
    		18 people
  29. 28. Design and build my own house
    		1,696 people
  30. 29. ride a blimp
    		20 people
  31. 30. Save money
    		16,108 people
  32. 31. be happy
    		24,432 people
Recent entries
have no regrets
Impossible...

I’ll never be able to fulfil this goal now.

If I was not a coward, one more person might be alive today. If I hadn’t panicked and had given a stranger first aid immediately when we arrived at the scene then he might still be alive. I found out later on the news that he had been a father – no matter how hard I try, I know I will never be able to forgive myself this.

I was the only one who could have helped him, and I failed.

May 20, 2007, 06:33AM PDT | 1 comment


stop thinking about "him" (read all 5 entries…)
Surprise, surprise, he's back...

Can I not get him out of my head simply because he represents something that I’m missing in my current relationship? Like security? This feels really stupid – why am I not able to keep myself under control?

Apr 17, 2007, 10:24AM PDT | 0 comments


let him go
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I don’t know yet if this is the right thing to do.

I love him, and can’t bear to face the world without him to laugh about it all, without him to help me understand everything.

But if he can’t decide if he loves me or not and whether we have a future, after four and a half fantastic happy years…maybe something has to be done.

“If you love something, let it go. If it comes back to you, its yours forever. If it doesn’t, then it was never meant to be.”

Eventually I guess I should do this. I just need to be brave enough (or just wait until he stops being terrified of admitting that he has feelings).

Apr 02, 2007, 03:21PM PDT | 0 comments


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paint more InshaAllah memorize the Quran learn martial arts how to make a friendster layout using my picture? be loved ComicMedal wants to drink less alcohol be a vegetarian for a week stop being lazy get up on time Learn to cook Do NaNoWriMo play sims online learn to pick a lock Let go of the past Design and build my own house KatyLove wants to Grow in Christ be a good daughter go green grow my own vegetables Learn to play keyboard run with the bulls in Pamplona stop eating fast food learn fencing learn to sail a sailboat do yoga visit every MLB stadium See Pearl Jam live
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