Jebus, right it’s stopping now. Binging that is, my parents have been reading a diet book by paul mckenna i think and he basically emphasizes the really basis principles of eating that totally curbed my binging and purging for a couple of weeks (until i fell today!) Basically,
nibbling taking those small bits and savouring.
Eating whatever you want, but small quantities.
Weirdly, when we’re starving we take so much more food than we actually need n when we’ve eaten like half – and r full, we stil eat the rest coz it’s there and a habit. LEAVE SOMETHING ON YOUR PLATE! It’s seriously good practise to break out of the mind-set that u gotta eat everything on ur plate..it helps.
Anywho, I gotta loose 6lb in 3 days n be under 112lb in 4 so jebus I hope I can do it. If anyone feels like going a couple of days fasting, Im here!
Pleease help me stay strong guys i love ur support :)
Take care xx
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My loongest water fast was 8 days, and Im going for 10 now lol..God Im gonna be moody -
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Sorry, im feeling abit fuckd up n need to do a bit of venting! I ws fasting n thn i kept lossing control but wen i finally got bk on track mi mum desided to weigh herself (not a gd idea) so now shes all depressd n stopped eating, she ws getting worried I wasnt eating too..which tbh i feel is abit hypocritical but w/e. I dunno if i should feel guilty for not wanting to eat but she’s making it so easy by refusing food herself.
God the atmosphere in this house is really crap i hate it when she gets like this (though its not her fault) I fell really bad cz she sd she was really proud of how ive been coping these last few months n getitng my life back on track, when it’s all just a facade. Shes nt seeing me crying or purging god Its like overwhelming guilt. Bt yh so I cnt seem to drop my facade, she doesnt relaise ive only been hiding my depression (curse it!) these last 3/4mtnths cz ive been so obsessed with my food instead.
URGH i feel really confused. Like I used to try n make my mum happier when she got depressed when I was little but nothing i did was good enough- really feels like its happened again.
Sorry, Im done ranting now. Sorry!!
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