Faitherbee

I keep looking at my burnt sienna kitchen, its poor walls full of drilled holes and anchors, thinking “oh wouldn’t it be so pretty if I just painted it?”
But pregnant people can’t paint, especially 9ft ceiling walls so alas I have to concentrate my efforts elsewhere.
I could sew a nice cover for the milk crate I keep the dog’s toys in and I could make a skirt to go around the table I keep her bed under so she could have a little privacy. I need to organize the closet and clean out our bedroom. Hard to believe it’s only two and a half months till we are sharing it with our newest family critter!
I’ve been working in the yard a little too, but I really need to find the funds for a lawnmower. In a month I will be drowning in bramuda if I don’t mow it twice a week. And I need to do more research about organic lawncare, my dad keeps bugging me about the weeds in the yard… :/

I bought wheat flour today, even though paying a dollar more hurt me deeply on the inside. I made cheddar pennies with it, my favorite snack! I swear they taste better. “Richer” is the word I would describe it with.
I replenished all my baking stuff so I can make things at home. No more preservatives and extra added sugar for us! I also finally bought stuff to make dinner after weeks of procrastinating… I’m not sure how we’ve survived without making a real grocery shopping trip for weeks? Okay so not the best, but better than hamburger helper or fast food. Brats and baked beans for the cookout, ricotta shells for dinner with my mom on sunday, chicken for some dinner in the future.
Whole wheat pierogis for lunch, rasins and cashews and fruit for snacks!
Maybe it’ll help make up for all the Easter chocolate and birthday cake floating around here…

It’s a slow process but I’m working on this. I am so shocked when I unearth something I have not thought of or used in years, but the thought of giving it away brings up all these unresolved feelings!
I was a music major, but I dropped out of school three years ago without looking back. Now I am past the heartache of admitting publicly that I made a serious mistake about where to go with my future. Right? Well selling my instruments has been such a painful thing. I just want to foist them on the nearest person who will take them! Thank goodness for ebay. It allows for such cool detachment while selling your personal posessions. No more do we have to weep openly while people rummage through our beloved things and offer us less than a quarter of what we think it’s worth. Freecycle is even better, you just leave that junk out in front of the garage and sit down for dinner while people drag off that useless piece of your most intimate family memories.
So, thank you freecycle. And thankyou ebay. You are making the de-cluttering of my house so much less lucrative and yet so much less painful.