^^Fer^^ ^^Espi^^

its been eventful, today I got back into training and was trippin on sunshine all day – looking out my window at work watching the few lonely placid clouds wizz away it could not have been a better day – work doesn’t seem like work these days, I pay less attention and but I seem to get more done meds are meant to be in full throttle now , I am still just me, as I figuered they deserve a chance for once…. maybe things are turning round cus I am giving myself a chance for once….blah… ... i think its time to wonder in dreamland now… goodnight

Sleepless nights have come about again, 1….2…3…4….5am finally some sign of some shut eye… alarm goes off time to “wake” , once I get out of bed, It all just feels so normal, getting up going to work with all the morning hour traffic things seem to go in slow motion I wonder if everyone is seeing what I am seeing, I am hyped and feeling great all day today was just incredible it’s so addictive to be so sharp so in tune, but at the same time I am so tense , something is worried inside me – something inside me knows this can’t go on for long – by brain is pleading for time out but 1…2…3..4..5 am finally some sign of some shut eye….......alarm goes off…..

I am trying Chamomile tonight, it was working for me a few weeks back, it tastes like wet sock would taste if you leave it in you mouth long enough (probably a harsh comparison but it’s the first thing that comes to mind) , but its only because I make a really strong concentrated tea out of it -

I agree with most here… I do not like meds

Not really, this was going well until a major setback, But however, I think I can pull through, I think at this point is where all I know will be tested…