I feel more attractive. I don’t know if I have lost weight or not because I don’t have a scale (haven’t been weight for over a year) but I have been working out. I could just have gotten toned. In anycase I feel better.
I should try doing this again. I have three bandates on my fingers, not because they are bleedin but because they are hurting so badly. I just start doing it and don’t notice, or just this one piece, it is sticking out and bothering me.
I was thinking…I don’t really need to lose five punds I need to tone my muscles and lose some fat but in toning the muscles I will gain weight. So a more accurate goal would be to lose fat and tone my muscles for a more attractive siluette. I am not sure how to cage this goal as done because I guess it would be done when I feel satisfied but that would be my other goal about feeling satsfied with myself. I am going to give up on this because it is superfluous.
We cleaned it two weeks ago but by not I see no difference. We have to do it again.
For now I am just not fixated on this. I do not feel atractive or unatractive. I just have other things to focus on like running faster and further.
A month or so ago I had a free lesson at a martial arts school. We can not afford it but it was fun anyway. When we have the money I will go back to it.
With goals of on going nature like this it is hard to say but I think I have achieved it. I read practically everyday and I love it. Keeps me from watching TV. I will keep going and keep loving it.
Currently Reading: Men at Arms by Terry Pratchett
I keep excercising and I feel better about myself but I see no real change in the thinghs but I feel better about myself.
Since I started working out last week I have been feeling much better and I really don’t think about my weight or my flabby things. I am also eating a lot healthier. It makes me feel better and we don’t even have a scale so I don’t know if it will do anything. I don’t even really care.
I started doing yoga and it is making me feel better. I just should have known that when you are out of shape you should not do anything with “power” in the name. I will be paying for it tomorrow during my free martial arts class I signed up for.
I made it about ten days in total with out relapsing. My cuticles are mostly okay and I will try again.
I don’t really need to lose five pounds. I am not fat but I am out of shape and I don’t look that good. I was a lot skinnier when my husband met me, not that he complains, but he would be lying if he said he thought I was just as hot as I was then. So I figured if I could just lose five pounds and get in good shape at the same time that would be good.
I have been reading about a book a week for about two weeks. I have been reading Terry Pratchett mostly. I read The Wee Free Men, The Amazing Maurice and His Educated Rodents, The Fifth Elephant. I Also read Witches by Ronald Dahl.
Now it has been five or four days in a row since I have bitten my cuticles. They are almost completely healthy.
I think I now remember how I started. It started in elementary school sewing class and in my boredom I would stick pins through the skin on my fingers.
So, I failed yesturday but I have started today and maybe I will make it and add another day to my tally of success.
