Flutelover

That sounds dirty, but it isn’t. It’s something people in you do in band. Okay that still doesn’t sound right. Ok. Double tonguing is the process of saying TA-KA TA-KA or a variation of that while playing your selected instrument as in a flute, clarinet, etc. Or the playing your instrument while utilizing the front and back part of your tongue for convenience while playing a fast part in a song. Explains it? No? Oh well.

Math is my best enemy. It made me miss one question on my TAKS test(which is the state required test is Texas) It made me get an 80 something(which I should blame on my self for letting life problems get in the way of my focus.) and it will be the death of me in Alg.2. Lol. Oh well. I just have to get better. Take notes, practice, and get better.

I have absolutely failed miserably. I want to forget him. And you all may think he’s an ex. Or a guy I once loves romantically. But you’re wrong. This guy, he was my best friend. I may have liked him, once upon a time, but the feeling surfaced after he stopped talking to me. And he went on like that all through out the end of 7th(yes I know a long time ago, but you need the background to my wounded heart) And for all of you who have never been ignored by a good friend. It hurts. A lot. And now 2 years later it happen once again. Except I liked him(like a true band nerd) because I loved how he played I loved that it sounded so true and pure. And he was my closest best friend. He helped me out when me and my ex broke up. He was there when I first met both of my ex’s. And he was there when I was down. And then around the end of our 9th grade year. April to be exact. And he just stopped talking to me. He acted as though I didn’t exist. And you hear of guys trying to give you a ‘clean break’ but he wasn’t even that considerate. When I didn’t have my best friend with me my depression heighten. And I was giving up. I never discusses how bad I was doing, I just went along with life. Then after weeks of just going along with life (if you want to understand more how I was feeling, it’s like in New Moon when Edward left.) the anger just built. And then burst. And I yelled at him, over text actually because I would have probably cried and I didn’t want to give him the satisfaction. And he told me his stupid reasons for not talking to me. And I just like started telling him I would be better than him. This story is very deep. And has many layers.

But now months after that. He “reconciled” with me. I didn’t want to at first because I knew it had to do with his position. But I couldn’t say no. I love him too much. And even after promising myself I would never let him hurt me again. I’m putting myself out there to be hurt. We aren’t as close as before but we’re friends And now I just hope I won;t be hurt…