I'm doing 22 things
I don’t even know how to start with this goal…How do you stop thinking? I’ve been struggling with this for years now and I can’t do it anymore. They’re always there in my mind, getting closer and closer to the front of the line until it’s all I can think about. Stay or get out…it feels like it’s going to drive me insane.
ForItAll's Life List
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1. stop thinking about suicide
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2. stay clean and sober
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3. leave my abuser
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4. leave and never look back
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5. Stop cutting
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6. accept that i was raped
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7. put my rapist in jail
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8. Save up enough money to move out and get through college
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9. be able to talk about my feelings
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10. be able to talk about what's bothering me
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11. Learn a fighting style other than street
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12. Become a better (gun) shot
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13. cure my insomnia
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14. hide my emotions better
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15. Spread the news, no matter how good it feels (and believe me, I know) drug addictions just make it worse
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16. meet Mariska Hargitay
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17. become a better volleyball player
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18. read all the books in my library
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19. Get a tattoo
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20. become fluent in 8 languages
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21. perfect my evil laugh
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22. learn to draw
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Recent entries
My main abusers are my parents and my brother. I’m tired of the longs pants and sleeves, making excuses, and lying all the time. I don’t want my entire body to tense up everytime someone touches me when I’m not expecting it, or think instinctively that someones attacking me when it happens. But I don’t have anywhere to go.
I am so screwed. Whoever accomplished this should get a fucking medal or something. My record is like a month, and that was so hard and frustrating and then I slipped, and then for a few minutes it was all gone. I am so close to just giving up. Good luck to everyone else, I really hope your having more success than I am.
