i have 1 disk left lol cant wait iv cried and iv laughed and now im ready to see the end of an era
Gabby_NoLongerAfraid's Life List
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1. own a bugatti
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2. stop passive aggressively killing myself
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3. accept who i am fully
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4. write a poem i am proud of
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5. plan my funeral
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6. learn not to cry
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7. stop chewing the inside of my mouth
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8. wish on stars, hunt four leaf clovers, and chase rainbows
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9. Be more optimistic
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10. watch old movies with someone i love
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11. Read and memorize more poetry
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12. kiss hugh laurie
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13. identify 100 things that piss me off
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14. Make a list of 100 songs that apply to me
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15. Read "Do Androids Dream of Electric Sheep"
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16. be happy
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17. tell my parents exactly what i think
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18. forgive my parents
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19. become a toxicologist
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20. go to durham university
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21. go to japan
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22. use a vibrator
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23. weigh 9 stone
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24. be in a flashmob
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25. learn calligraphy
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26. become a geisha
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27. watch every episode of family guy
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28. have a tarot card reading
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29. find something better than what i had
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30. get over my ex
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31. learn to love again
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32. be a better vegetarian
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33. laugh one really good laugh at least once a day
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How I did it: i started halfway through yr 8. i just stopped eating i didn have a reason or one i understood i just stopped, a friend made me buy a sandwhich everyday and eat a little bit. she built it up so by the end of yr 8 i was almost eating normally. it turned out that this was how i dealt with personal crisis and my familys bad reaction to my trying to tell them i wfas bi is how it started. for the next two years i suffered on and off … Read how I did it…
granted ive done some bad things in my time but im not a bad person and hopefully not that difficult a daughter.
but i cant deal with my parents or my mothers mam (my nan).
they cant accept or believe that im bi
they tried to put me on a sex offender list because a year ago when i was 15/16 i pecked a 14/15 yr old on the lips she happened to be a very close friend.
they stop me having a life and accuse me of liying continuosly
wat they dont realise is that every kid lies because they need privacy
and then the hypocrites went and wove a huge cover up around me and i found oout
i was determinded not to forgive them because theyv never forgiven me for anything ive done as they still bring it up when they need something to yell at me in a fight
but know im just sick of it, the hassle and the negativity. ive got enough of my own without theirs too.
ok i call him my guy (ha!) but tbh hes just a nice teacher i kinda feel in love with when i was in year 9. he was my physics teacher, tall, skinny, funny and infuriating. everyone has said that from day one i was flirting but i didn clock on for almost a year. i dont know if he was flirting back, but i doubt it, he has a partner and two kids and was born in ‘66 lol. but he never said anything and we had a brilliant banter between us for three years. he saw me grow up quite a bit and i saw myself falling for him quite a bit. when we left i said id tell him but i didn doubtless he already knows as im aware my friends have screamed it down countless corridors lol but i just want to tell him so i can move on a little. so on november 13th when i go back to pick up my gcse awards, ill tell him in an off hand way and give him a peck on the cheek :D i might as well ive got nothing to lose. xx
