Sometimes I have so much work to do that I say, like the Pixies; “where is my mind???”.... and where is the rest of my life?
I like work challenges, and I am a very good and hard worker. But it’s time to set some limits and get time balance. I’ve been managing 2 demanding positions in my company since July. I’ve learned a lot, but I usually work 60+ hours a week. And when I’m not working, I am thinking about the things I have to do.
My work is also my refuge. And my personal life hasn’t been the happiest, so I use my work to avoid it. But it is not the solution, right?
These last months, however, I’ve been realizing that life passes me by. My friends go to the movies, fall in love, meet new friends or lovers, read books, travel, whatever. They have a life! What about me?
Last week I had something like an emotional breakdow. Had an horrible morning and at the afternoon I couldn’t stop crying. And feeling lonely, tired and miserable. As if I was fallen on the ground and nobody to help me. But this episode set a limit in some way, and this week I started feeling less anxious. Some days this week I felt like “Am I being irresponsible?”, or… Am I being just human? It´s been liberating :)
So now I set this goal. I want to learn how to say no, to get more credit for my work, and more credit from myself in the first place – Indulge myself and recognise my personal needs, instead of punishing myself. Wish me luck guys!
