Glitterplague

First off as it says in the title of this entry, I am not Christian. I follow Kemetic Orthodoxy, which is a reconstruction/revival of the ancient Egyptian religion. However, I’ve always been fascinated with religions of all kinds and wish to learn more.

It seems most people today think of Christians as ignorant, closed-minded zealots. But I suppose I want to believe that such is not the case and that most are perfectly normal, caring people. I have plenty of Christian friends that don’t hate gay people(in fact some of them ARE gay), don’t hate or disagree with non-Christians, etc.

I’ve never agreed much with the few passages I have read from the bible (especially the historically inaccurate depiction of the Egyptians and the fact that they never had Jewish slaves… Just a given thing to tick you off when you happen to be so involved with Egyptology and the ancient Egyptian religion!), but my curiousity and hunger for knowledge on the many different spiritual paths to be taken are getting the better of me. :)

I just started, and I’m only on Genesis 16:1, but so far it’s been… fascinating. There are quite a few things that don’t add up and quite a few things that originally were followed that aren’t now which makes me wonder why the bible is taken so seriously in some respect but not others…Like a pick-and-choose sort of situation. But I won’t get into it in detail… My place here isn’t to insult anybody, just to learn.

I lost 20-25 pounds in about two/three months and feel and look much better! I’m 5’9” and now weigh 157. I used to weigh 180.

My only concern is… I haven’t really been doing anything to loose all of that weight. I’ve been for the most part eating like I normally do (though without as many sweets as I used to) and have been doing pilates workouts (few and far between, though).

I’m afraid I’ll gain it all back…Which I do NOT want. So far so good… Somehow. I guess affirmation really does help, lol. Because about the only thing I’ve been doing is watching myself miraculously loosing and telling myself I’ll lose more and that I look good. Seems to have worked thus far… But I get the feeling the magic will wear off sooner or later.

How is it possible for me to have lost all of this weight for no good reason other than telling myself I will? How can I make sure I’ll keep it off? I know I should definitly start working out more, but… I think I’m getting lazy what with the pounds just melting off lately. :-\

How is it, that when I only eat two healthy, properly-portioned meals a day and exercise for 30-45 minutes (usually 5 days out of every week)... I still can’t lose ANY weight and in fact GAIN weight?

Like I’ve said, I’m only 17. If it’s this hard for me to lose weight, if my metabolism sucks this badly at this age… Dear God, I don’t want to think what I’ll look and feel like in 10/20/30 years.

Help?