GoldensRule

I’ve already emailed some friends to go to the movies or get together and scrapbook tonight. Both are activities that I do without alcohol involved. If I drink before a movie, I know I’ll fall asleep shortly into the movie. If I scrapbook, I need my creative brain and alcohol limits that part of me. So, I hope to do one or the other so I’m not tempted to pick up that bottle of wine. Friday’s are hard. I’m always looking to “decompress” on the weekends, thinking it will allow my body and thoughts to rest up for the coming week ahead. Actually, it’s the opposite. I ruins me for the week ahead. I don’t have as much energy or brain power or patience to get through whatever lies ahead. I have to keep reminding myself of that. Good luck to us all tonight and tomorrow night. Stay Sober together! We’re not alone…

Well, as you all know, from my previous posts, that I’ve been strugling with this goal lately.
Recently when I do pour that glass of wine during the week with no celebration or reason to drink, I’ve been getting kind of embarassed. I don’t know where that came from, but, it’s kind of a good thing. My thoughts go somewhere like this, “why did you just pour that glass of wine”? “where is it going to take you on this normal night of the week”? “if you drink it, you’ll feel like shit in the morning”? “what person, that’s thinking clearly, makes a decision to do this to themselves”? Stuff like that. It’s a new feeling for me. I hope it continues and allows me to feel uncomfortable enough about drinking that I won’t want it, more than I do.
Stay strong today people. I didn’t drink the last couple of nights and I feel incredible strong and healthy today. I’ve gotten more done this morning around the house than I’ve gotten done in the last month combined.
Stay Sober with ME…

A couple very special people encouraged me to stay with my goal. It touched me. I will stay and I will work hard today to not drink. I want to be healthy and feel good. This is what I will work towards today. I feel very motivated today and even went on the treadmill. I have high blood pressure and would just LOVE to get off my meds and lower my BP naturally.
Thank you both again for your encouragement.