Gorneval

After some troubles, I changed the massage style I wanted to study. But the good part is: I’m now studying the thing for more than a month and my interest is only growing!
I just paid my bills to buy a table and all the stuff that goes with it and I have more than enough people willing to receive massage and help me practice.
I don’t know exactly the direction I’ll choose after this year, but still, I have some plans and ideas, friends to work with and more than anything, willpower to succeed!
In some months, I will have be done with the initial goal, but another one will take its place!

What is to learn the martial art? I definitely want to continue to go forward in the art, but what makes me improve it? Is a continuous presence to the classes the answer? I no longer think so. I think I hit myself on a wall this summer when the classes started back. I founded myself out of place, a bit lost and troubled. I’ve been practising assiduously 3 to 5 times a week for the past 5 years, so to rise of that “misplaced” feeling was very hard to accept. But after many reflections, I had to come to the evidence: I was not in a learning routine; I was stuck in a pattern that blinded me from the truth that I had reached another level. Of course, the Sensei still has many things to teach me technically, but I think the martial training (and every training in fact) is not only to learn techniques and gain higher belts.
I know that martial arts are deeply entangled to my life, and that I’ll continue to learn about them trough all my life, but I finally understood that sometimes, one’s need a regeneration and assimilation period to truly improve its art.
I understand that taking that way will break many bridges with my previous life and friends, but I’m confident that this is the best way for me and them. If life think it’s necessary, my path will cross theirs in the future, but for now, I’ll be on my own for some times.
I think that taking this road is closer to the real understanding of the art than to continue in the standard and simple pattern of the continuous training.
Isn’t it said that most of the enlighten warriors and souls had to break through the habits of their times and travel some times alone before becoming what they were meant to?
Without pretencion, I believe it’s true.

Ok… I’ve been accepted at the school, and even to the class itself. I had a date, a amount to pay, everything…
But I changed my idea. I have another profession in mind, and I’ve also been accepted. But that doesn’t change my passion for construction and renovation!
Actually, I’m back in France, at a friend’s house, in which I’ve been working last summer for a month and where I’ll spend my next two months. Why? Because he bought an old hotel and I’m the lead worker here! We have to clean every level from everything (including walls) and build something completelly new. From destruction to final painting, on 4 floors. I’m learning as much as I can in order to be able to build my own house someday…
So no more class, but real experience.