Gornstanton

Over a year ago I set myself a goal to finish my degree while I work full time. I’m now half done! haha I just have about 20 classes to take, but I’ll do it slowly and surely!

Hi all, I’m writing this to see if I’m alone. You see I’ve been bulimic since I was about 14 (I’m now 24). For the past 10 years its varied greatly in frequency. I’ve gone from once a month to 4 times a day and everything else in between. The thing is, that when I was doing it every single day often more than once, I felt I was in a personal crisis. I was obsessed and depressed and I knew things needed to change. I sought help, told my family and eventually got better. But here is the part that gets me-I still do it, I’ve never actually stopped, the only thing that is different is that I’m not constantly obsessed with it and it is no longer a daily occurance. I’d guess that I throw up twice a week on average. Truth be told though, I have trouble remembering how often I did it just the week before. It’s like I’m mentally blocking that out because its become such a normal part of my life. Normal!? The fact is, that purging when I’ve over indulged has become normal for me. I don’t usually think twice about it, and I don’t feel guilty anymore. I shamelessly throw up at work, at home, at restaurants-really I’m willing to do it anywhere because I never get caught.

I’ve tried searching on the internet about long term bulimia but I don’t really find much. Are there any other people out there that have been dealing with it for 10 years and have stopped seeing it as a problem because it only happen a couple of times a week?? I just want to know if this is normal.

Wow! I’ve owed money for awhile now…and in less than a month I should finally be all caught up! All it took was working 7-days a week at times…but it’ll all be worth it once I’m out of debt! Woohoo!