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Here’s my problem. In High School, I thought that I was pretty good at the violin. I was in the advanced orchestra, and one of only a handful that could play the high notes on Copland’s “Hoedown” from “Rodeo”.
Then I started college, and went to see about auditioning for the orchestra. I saw the music that was being used for the auditions—and it was harder than any music I’d ever seen before, let alone played, let alone sightread for an audition. As you can imagine, it was quite a shock to my confidence.
So, for the first time in eight years years, I’ve spent the last few months without any music to practice, or anything to practice for. In just that short time, I’ve been getting worse and worse every time I try to play. I can’t let this go on; even if I’m never good enough for the University Orchestra, I refuse to give up on this instrument.
This semester, I’m going to take violin lessons. This might be a stupid move, to tell you the truth; I’m already taking voice lessons, guitar lessons, and piano lessons. Violin is the only instrument I play that I don’t need for my major, and the stress might just kill me.
But if I can just get to the point where I know what to do on my own… I’ve always been in an orchestra, and I don’t know how to manage without one. Maybe violin lessons are just the thing to help me figure out some sort of direction to head towards. So yeah, I’m going to try it. And I’m going to practice every day.
