I'm doing 32 things
The other day I was talking to one of my friends, and I was looking around the room, and he walked into my line of sight, and before I could look away, he looked right at me, and than smiled this smile. It was like he was thinking “I knew it, that pip sqeak has a crush on me”. I was so embarresed. He probably thinks that I was staring at him, and I wasn’t, I was staring at the cornner of the room listening to my friend. I thought that he was some where else. Than later, I turned around a corner really fast and suddenly, so was he really fast, and we almost ran right into eachother. I looked down sheepishly and said that I was sorry and walked away, and when I did, I heard him give a little laugh to him self. I wonder what he was thinking when he laughed.
GrimmReaper's Life List
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1. Give back to those who have given to me, on 43 things
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2. Hide in my closet for a whole night where no one can bug me
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3. Stop hurting myself
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4. become invisible
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5. Be left alone by the world
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6. beat social anxiety
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7. Be free of OCD
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8. run away for a few days without telling anybody
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9. be loved
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10. Write something. Anything. Sentence. Paragraph. Short Story. Novel. Epic. Anything.
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11. Write a novel
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12. GET BRACES
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13. become less shy
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14. work on my novel
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15. Be myself
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16. Feel more happier
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17. Keep my parents happy
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18. be able to read people's minds
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19. stop comparing myself to others
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20. save money and buy my first house
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21. design my own Converse
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22. Give 6800 Cheers
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23. Do 100 sit-ups daily for 100 consecutive days
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24. throw away 30 things I don't need
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25. be more social
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26. Be more resonsible and grow up
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27. Think before I speak
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28. Record more things about my day to day life so that some day I can look back and read it again and remember who I was
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29. Be able to tell my mother when she asked if I am okay or not
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30. Try to show my friends how special they are and get them to like themselves
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31. stop obsessing
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32. yell
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How I did it: I had been wanting to talk to him for a long long long time, and had made it my goal to say somthing to him, and have a real conversation.So, the next time that I saw him, I shut out my fear, blocked out mind and its panicing thoughts and walked right up to him smiling. He looked over at me and a wave of excightment came across his face as he saw me looking at me.He asked me a qestion about a rumor he heard about me and my job, and I conf… Read how I did it…
How I did it: he was always trying to be nice to me. Calling me "Kitty Cat" or "Kitty". Always singling me out in a group to ask how I was doing, or he would always look at me, or watch me walk by. He even liked to text me somtimes. My friends told me that he would always smile or laugh when I walked by, or that they where always catching him sending glances at me. I almost fell for it. but I didn't want to like him, I wasn't ready to love so… Read how I did it…
My friend thinks that she is fat, and she is not. She keeps complaining and obbsessing over her weight, and I can tell that it is really bugging her. But she is not over wieght at all, and she is just fine. I guess at school people keep saying that she is fat, and they do it to bug her. So now she believes it. I told her not to beilieve the people that told her such things, but she just shakes her head. I guess one of her best friends from school even called her a cow to hurt her feelings cause he knew she hated her weight (Wich is just fine) and she was crying. I called him up and chewed him out for doing it, but he never told her that he was sorry. She only weighs 130 and she is five five, and she is just convinced that she is sooo fat. SHe told me that she is obese. But her weight is just like mine. I’m 114 and five two, and I look just fine, and her body wieght looks just like mine. SHe is just taller than I am. Plus she has alot more mucle. I keep trying to tell her that she is not fat, and that by calling her self fat, she is calling me fat, but she wont believe it.
It hurts because I know how she feels, and I don’t want her to be in pain and hate her body. But I keep trying and she won’t believe me. And it hurts me too now. She wants to loose ten pounds, so I think that I will just have to try my best to support her in her desicion in doing so.
Okay, so now he is gettting better. Or we both are. Whenever I see him, he doesn’t always seem so angry at me, and once he come over to hang with my brother and he told me congradulations on getting my perment. I have talked to him once so far, and it was nothing major, all I did was pick on him for naming two of his cats the same name. But I do feel a little bit better. But he still seems to not like me so much or at least still be angry with me. I don’t know which one.
He doesn’t like to look me in the eye, and neither do I to him. But when we do, somtimes it seems that we are both afriad.
