GroovyIslandGirl

My life is little overwhelming right now and it seem to have been this way these past few months. I always welcome new people into my life – and there will always be one that really shakes it up a whole lot – not like im complaining. And i guess thats why i need to meditate – to deal with situations which are out of my control, attain a certain kind of inner peace. I think at the end of the day I hope to be calmer, not worry too much or fear life or question it for that matter.

I did try to meditate a couple of months – a friend recommended it to me and taught me how to do it, but it seem that it was hard for me to focus so instead i just continued on my morning walks/runs. I like it our in the wee hours of the morning – there is always that sense of peace. I like to have conversations with God then .. anyways thats another story ..

Another friend echoed the benefits of meditation and how it changed their lives and how things seem to just fall into place. I think thats what i need to just believe that things will. So i have decided to try and meditate. I have read some articles on meditation and while surfing the web i found something on Sahaja Yoga and meditation. They have a free beginners class this Tuesday (feb 9th) and time permitted i am going to try & make it there and see what it is all about and if i can get any pointers on how to focus & relax. I will try my best to make it there on tuesday. wish me luck!

I have been doing a lot of writing these pass few weeks. The inspiration comes in the form of a man – suprise suprise. :) Not a bad thing, just a lot of thinking and writing. I have started a new blog so that i hope will help me continue writing. My aim when it comes to writing is to be consistent… and i hope this year will be a year of lots of writings provided the inspiration stays. I am not saying nothing else inspires but his presence in life has shaken it up a tad .. :)

As much as i would love to to this i still have fear holding back. I think if i ever fall inlove i doubt i would be letting the other person know. I feel that when i start to feel something for someone and then i hear horror stories from other people i get scared and then pretend nothings really there when in actual fact it actually kills me inside. But i am good at putting up fronts especially when matters of the heart is concerned so the other party have no idea what so ever i am really feeling.. I guess its what people call playing safe..