GypsysLittleDreamer

Your invitation couldn’t have come at a more crucial time in my life. My eyes were opened to the reality of how my husband really feels about me three weeks ago and since then, I’ve been thinking of the changes I must make within the next two years in order to get out of this toxic relationship.

I have a plan. Now I just have to put it in motion. I think this will help me to do that. Thank you for inspiring me.

I wonder if my experiences would interest anyone. I wonder if they could help other people. What I wrote in my first entry to 43T regarding learning to love myself was only a stitch in time compared to the rest of my life. I have overcome SO many horrible things. And I’ve had so many serious setbacks.

My life was pretty much cast in stone at the age of three. How I felt about myself, how I interacted with others, etc. If nothing else, my story may appeal to those within the psychiatric world.

We all need an outlet. A way to vent our problems and emotions. Ideally, people have each other for that. I had no one. Counselors and psycologists aside, the people I needed most to listen…my mother, my father, my husband…all turned their backs and closed their minds and ears because it was just too awefull to hear. To believe.

I need to be heard in order to have closure. Otherwise, I’ll never be able to move forward. My life has revolved around that little girl and everything that happened after age three and it’s time to say good bye to her. That time is WAY overdue. If I could get my story published, I could be heard. Finally.

I wonder if I have what it takes…

Another thing that will fall under ‘be healthy’.