Haleykins

So i’ve met some guys that are loyal. I don’t know if they like me but we will see how it turns out. My old boyfriend wasn’t very loyal…He would cheat and lie to me. I really don’t like getting hurt when i’m with a guy for 11months or more. Because if i’m with a guy that long..that means i love him. He did hurt me bad. He was actually the first guy i have fell in love with. But all we are now are friends. hah. I still think about him..

When i wake-up and look in the mirror. I do not like the way i look. I just hate my chubby face and my big boobs. I just want to be skinny and pretty. No ones perfect? i think so sometimes though. The girls in my school are so pretty. I always have competition. The guys in our school are…interesting lol. But anyways i cut my hair,workout,eat right, and put on some make-up to make me look prettier. I have been called beautiful many times by guys…It just doesn’t seem so true to me.

Just seems the harder i try to be happy, the more i get upset. I’m tired of crying and getting hurt. I used to have someone that made me happy but then i lost them(Theydied..). I always call my friend when i’m about to cry or cut. I’m trying to stop being unhappy. School makes me really not happy. People at school hate me because I’m not sociable, or they don’t like the way i dress in black all the time. I want to be accepted for who i am. I’m not going to change myself for anyone. I just want to be happy.