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For the record… I didn’t physically assault him. Rather, took time away from the situation, learned to love myself again, gave myself time, and then once I was ready spoke to him again. I forgave him for lying and treating me with little respect, though the hurt will take much time to heal and serves as a good reminder of how valuable I actually am. He forgave me for the insanity that had become my need for attention and positive care. I did not knee him in the balls. Rather, I treated the situation with an adult mentality, which has challenged both of us to be better people ultimately.
Months later – I hate and love this man with a vigorous fire. He brought nothing but lies, mental abuse, and manipulation into my life, which was already crumbling due to unsatisfied need. It is because of his weakness and ill spirit that he saved my life. If an ultimate climax of anger and hate had not been reached due to his actions, I would still be in that vulnerable space today. But, because of his spite and insanity, I broke free, able to never speak to him again. Thus, I reached my lowest point of self-pity, depression, and anger, from which I could finally start rebuilding. I have, day at a time, started to love myself again and started to fight for this life that I temporarily let be dictated by so many others. It is mine, no one else’s. Thank you DJ.
