HattieHatesPeople

i am scared of people. i havent ever written or told anyone about it before. ever. its scary to be scared of people. i cant fit in. talking to people feels awkward. i feel like someone who shouldnt exist-and because i shouldnt exist everything i do is void. nothing matters, and no one has the ability to care about me. its like im trapped inside my own head and i get the worst nightmares. More like night terrors really. i get sick to my stomach scared of people. it took me years to make the few close friends i do have-and even then i hate telling people about myself, because im scared they will use it against me or something. im scared of people, yet i am equally scared when i am left alone.
I sound completely daft-hence why i havent told anyone.
Pretty please don’t laugh at me?