I should’ve known…once I added this goal to my list, it would be in my mind, and I would have another dream. Last night I was there, in it again. I was so curious, not angry, or even that sad, just very curious. Some of it still doesn’t make sense to me…how things turned out, and I wanted to know if it’s better now. I don’t think it is…I think the turn of events after the end was brought about out of desperation. I keep having to remind myself of what it was like, and sort through fact and what might have been fiction. Still, there are enough facts that sit there and don’t budge.
Jul 04, 04:02AM PDT | 0 comments
It’s been just over 4 years since that ‘time’, but still, there are things that come to mind that I wish I would stop thinking about. The dreams have diminished, but now and again, I’ll wake up in the middle of one. Always the same theme, bittersweet, heartache. I wish there was a drug that could make us forget selected episodes in our lives. I wish there was resolution, closure, answers. And, most of all, I wish there was a way to close the book once and for all with understanding and acceptance. If I knew it mattered and that there was something real and true, it might make a difference.
Jul 03, 07:09PM PDT | 1 cheer | 0 comments
The things I do now, but I need to do more:
-shop for groceries or anything at all with reusable bags
-use all biodegradable cleaning products or just water and baking soda
-use energy efficient lightbulbs
-turn off lights and only have one on in the room I’m in
-try not to buy anything with tons of packaging
-buy local produce
-regift, reuse, reduce
-donate to the David Suzuki Foundation
-buy organic produce
Jun 18, 05:02PM PDT | 3 cheers | 0 comments
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