HotFirecracker

id rather just move somewhere where i can see whales in the wild often than go on a tour, but either way would be cool. ive always wanted to do this, ever since i used to visit the baltimore aquarium when i was little. and once i had a dream that i saw real whales and it was awesome. plus ive always loved the ocean, everything in it, but whales would be the biggest, most spectacular thing i could ever see. i think this would be one of the most amazing experiences i could ever have, i know i will literally have tears in my eyes when i see a whale in real life. i know it sounds lame but when i was really ill a few years ago, the ‘light at the end of my tunnel’ was the image of me being well and happy again, and standing on a boat and looking out at the sea and seeing whales coming up for air, and being able to feel well enough in mind and body to truly enjoy the experience. the good news is im better now, but i still havent gotten to see the whales!

i now have a stripper pole installed in my house, though i have been too busy/scared to even try it out. maybe tomorrow

i have no idea how to make girl friends but im starting a new job in a couple of weeks and im assuming there will at least be some females there. i hope that will bring some results! the problem is, im fine with making acquaintances with other females but i never know how to ‘take it to the next level’, like as actual friends that is, that dont just chit chat at work a little bit or hang out in a big group of people. i guess i never end up seeing them enough times to feel comfortable just calling them up one day to go to lunch or something. its like, when i try to think of the friends that i have now, its hard to remember a time when we were just on the ‘acquaintance level.’ theres no rhyme or reason to becoming real friends with someone, its like it just happens like magic or something. weird.