I'm doing 39 things
i havent been the most runing person well ever so i may as well start jogging becouse school starts soon and i want to get a boyfriend too so yh ill write tomorrow if i went jogging , but my plan is that i wake up at 6:30 am and go out at 7 am and come back at 8 or 8:30 am so no one sees me :$ im really emberssed to run while someone else is watching or someone is there so yh ill tell you tomorow or at the end of the week if i went jogging =P
I_wish_i_was_dead_XX's Life List
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1. have sex on the beach
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2. go skinny dipping
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3. Dance nude in the rain.
1 cheer71 people -
4. Graduate from university
907 people -
5. Be myself
1,857 people -
6. Get married in Las Vegas
75 people -
7. stop being so shy
539 people -
8. get out of the house more
186 people -
9. tell my friends what i think of them
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10. french kiss
1 entry92 people -
11. lose my virginity
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12. get paid for doing something I love
2 cheers47 people -
13. Kiss in the rain
15,118 people -
14. Have my first kiss{while AWAKE}
5 people -
15. design my own tattoo
1 cheer5,044 people -
16. Wear perfume every day
1 entry2 people -
17. have a happy family
171 people -
18. go to amsterdam
1 cheer712 people -
19. say a word 100 times
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20. Lose 10 pounds
6,336 people -
21. be more confident
11,572 people -
22. finally express my anger in music or lyrics
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23. leave home
92 people -
24. Let go of the past
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25. Learn how to play piano or guitar, or both!
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26. Try lawschool
2 people -
27. be comfortable in my own skin
1 entry517 people -
28. Learn to play the guitar
13,797 people -
29. Send a message in a bottle
4,141 people -
30. To be skinny
94 people -
31. write a screenplay
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32. Do it "Doggy style"
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33. invent a new sex position
1 entry116 people -
34. get my tounge pierced
1 entry157 people -
35. Go on my first date
129 people -
36. Join the Black Parade
3 people -
37. get a piercing
598 people -
38. see a broadway musical
106 people -
39. get rich
2,230 people
How I did it
It made me
TOO depressing 
How I did it: i was so depressed that a resor was my only help and friend, but i did have frinds but not real friends anyway i cuted and kept onb cuting till my "friend" noticed and well everything roled down from there....right now im 14 years old and im FREE of cutting for 6 months =) since my 14th birthday and guess what.....im also a lowner and i dont need to cut anymore, it was a painfull part of my life that i expirienced about a year or soo ago … Read how I did it…
Recent entries
i dont know my self any more at first it felt good now it fells like someone took over my body and if making my body movements i fell like this isent me i just want to go back to the times i was happy with my friends whith all the happy faces and laughter,
i want to stop but my body just needs more of the scars, it fells like its the only thing that tells me that im alive, i just fell like i lost control over everything that happent to me i think im loosing my friends too becouse of this.
i pinky promised one of my friends that i didnt cut since i told her it was about a month ago but yet i did a week ago when i had a finght with my dad,
and right now im just not thinking about what im wrighting i just think that this is the only place
i can talk about this, also im crying right now i have lost my mind becouse
1:::: i broke a pinky promise
2::::i cant control my hands when im holding a razor
3::::i keep having fights with my dad
4::::i have scares for life and i think life is no worth living like this.
man my life is screwed i cant take it any more
well it was a meet and greet, but they sang 4 song EEEKKK i so love them and it was SO WORTH IT,
i WILL REMEMBER IT FOR LIFE, it was in lonbdon at hmv on 27/06/08
P.S- i know bad pic i had a bad spot in there
