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I_wish_i_was_dead_XX

i fell stressed so much and its summer =(



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  2. 1. have sex on the beach
    1 entry . 1 cheer     		252 people
  3. 2. go skinny dipping
    2 cheers     		3,072 people
  4. 3. Dance nude in the rain.
    1 cheer     		61 people
  5. 4. Graduate from university
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  6. 5. Be myself
    		1,736 people
  7. 6. Get married in Las Vegas
    		66 people
  8. 7. stop being so shy
    		535 people
  9. 8. get out of the house more
    		172 people
  10. 9. tell my friends what i think of them
    		1 person
  11. 10. french kiss
    1 entry     		101 people
  12. 11. lose my virginity
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  13. 12. get paid for doing something I love
    1 cheer     		48 people
  14. 13. Kiss in the rain
    		14,580 people
  15. 14. Have my first kiss{while AWAKE}
    		5 people
  16. 15. design my own tattoo
    1 cheer     		4,488 people
  17. 16. Wear perfume every day
    1 entry     		2 people
  18. 17. have a happy family
    		133 people
  19. 18. go to amsterdam
    1 cheer     		588 people
  20. 19. say a word 100 times
    		1 person
  21. 20. Lose 10 pounds
    		5,940 people
  22. 21. be more confident
    		10,299 people
  23. 22. finally express my anger in music or lyrics
    1 cheer     		1 person
  24. 23. leave home
    		91 people
  25. 24. Let go of the past
    		1,579 people
  26. 25. Learn how to play piano or guitar, or both!
    		2 people
  27. 26. Try lawschool
    		2 people
  28. 27. be comfortable in my own skin
    1 entry     		468 people
  29. 28. Learn to play the guitar
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  30. 29. Send a message in a bottle
    		3,641 people
  31. 30. To be skinny
    		78 people
  32. 31. write a screenplay
    		2,191 people
  33. 32. Do it "Doggy style"
    		3 people
  34. 33. invent a new sex position
    1 entry     		83 people
  35. 34. get my tounge pierced
    1 entry     		152 people
  36. 35. Go on my first date
    		132 people
  37. 36. Join the Black Parade
    		6 people
  38. 37. get a piercing
    		578 people
  39. 38. see a broadway musical
    		85 people
  40. 39. get rich
    		2,079 people

How I did it
How to cut my wrists
It took me
9 months
It made me
TOO depressing

How I did it: i was so depressed that a resor was my only help and friend, but i did have frinds but not real friends anyway i cuted and kept onb cuting till my "friend" noticed and well everything roled down from there....right now im 14 years old and im FREE of cutting for 6 months =) since my 14th birthday and guess what.....im also a lowner and i dont need to cut anymore, it was a painfull part of my life that i expirienced about a year or soo ago … Read how I did it…

Aug 29, 04:12PM PDT | 0 comments


Recent entries
go jogging every morning
Untitled 15 months ago

i havent been the most runing person well ever so i may as well start jogging becouse school starts soon and i want to get a boyfriend too so yh ill write tomorrow if i went jogging , but my plan is that i wake up at 6:30 am and go out at 7 am and come back at 8 or 8:30 am so no one sees me :$ im really emberssed to run while someone else is watching or someone is there so yh ill tell you tomorow or at the end of the week if i went jogging =P

Aug 15, 2008, 03:34PM PDT | 0 comments


cut my wrists (read all 2 entries…)
i dont know 16 months ago

i dont know my self any more at first it felt good now it fells like someone took over my body and if making my body movements i fell like this isent me i just want to go back to the times i was happy with my friends whith all the happy faces and laughter,

i want to stop but my body just needs more of the scars, it fells like its the only thing that tells me that im alive, i just fell like i lost control over everything that happent to me i think im loosing my friends too becouse of this.

i pinky promised one of my friends that i didnt cut since i told her it was about a month ago but yet i did a week ago when i had a finght with my dad,

and right now im just not thinking about what im wrighting i just think that this is the only place
i can talk about this, also im crying right now i have lost my mind becouse

1:::: i broke a pinky promise
2::::i cant control my hands when im holding a razor
3::::i keep having fights with my dad
4::::i have scares for life and i think life is no worth living like this.

man my life is screwed i cant take it any more

Aug 01, 2008, 12:21PM PDT | 0 comments


Go to a Jonas Brothers Concert
Untitled 17 months ago

well it was a meet and greet, but they sang 4 song EEEKKK i so love them and it was SO WORTH IT,
i WILL REMEMBER IT FOR LIFE, it was in lonbdon at hmv on 27/06/08

P.S- i know bad pic i had a bad spot in there

Jun 28, 2008, 09:52AM PDT | 0 comments


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Save money see whales figure out what to do with my life lose 30 pounds in a month lose 6 pounds EllieBeauty wants to Read 20 books in 2009 meet benji madden learn how to type fast without looking at the keyboard Watch "What the Bleep Do We Know?" Watch the movie "Interview with a Vampire" pet a penguin Sarah wants to update my wardrobe go to a Dave Matthews Band concert Be energetic and enthusiastic get a massage Read more books own a nice car become a freelance web programmer get a brazillian wax meet Nikki Sixx run a 6 minute mile. Have a baby stop biting my nails berit wants to Watch all the Films on the American Film Institutes Top 100 American Films of the 20th Century Swim more have date nights with my husband pierce my lip take better care of myself
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