Dolly

the most sad of any b day ever had, honestly I feel totally hurt & sad to be 27 single, still no kids, studyinbg, I skipped school last week, to cry out all after domestic violence Ill take a vacation to the netherlands & when I am back I am moving out. I feel all sad & depress but I am going to join (AGAIN)my therephy group & ask for a 24 hrs counselor. bcuz I have had for seconds suicidal toughs but I am too embarrased to say it not even to my mom or fiance.

I feel like I do not want to live but I am reading a book, is called the committed life is about manby topics that I guess I should have known, but I don´t.

I´ll be going for a week… I def. need vacations. T_T

well so far so good I am in a therapy group, I suffer from Neurosis & Compulsive dissoder (I am wayyy to obssesed to have clean hands or scrub things non stop) last year my young brother & only was diagnose w/Leukimia, now he is back to normal life but after lawst week my sister in law hitted me & ùlled my hair, the scabs are commming clean no scars left , Thank G-D.

however now for sometime I feel extra sleepy , bored & hurt.

I have no idea where to start. but I decided today to do it. I am going tru my neurosis without medication & I do make it very well. I take teas, , plants & natural pills of cactus & stuff like that,
I adopeted a pet (cat) after my 2 dogs died on the same week.

feeling loved at least y my cat.
my fiance loves me but lives very far away, our wedding will be in 2 years from now…..... yeapppp not helping much…

I guess this is an step to admit I will be fine,