InTheFade

Can I get your hand to write on?
Just a piece of lead to bite on?
What am I to fly my kite on?
Do you want to flash your light on?
Take a look its on display – for you
Coming down? no not today…

Did you meet your fortune teller
Get it off with no propeller
Do it up it’s always stellar
What a way to finally smell her
Break it up but not to strong – for you
Take a piece and pass it on

Fly away on my Zephyr
I feel it more then ever
And in this perfect weather
We’ll find a place together
Fly on my wing

Riddlin on liberator
Find a way to be a skater
Rev it up to levitator
Super friendly aviator
Take a look its on display – for you
Coming down? no not today…

Fly away on my Zephyr
I feel it more then ever
And in this perfect weather
We’ll find a place together
In the water where the scent of my emotion
All the world can pass me by
Fly away on my Zephyr
We’ll find a place together

In the water where the scent of my emotion
All the world can pass me by
Fly away on my Zephyr
We’re gonna live forever
Forever

Over a year being on that thang and several several thousand dollars later, i’m finally clean.

This is not only the one thing everyone will accomplish in their lives, no matter what they do, but it is also the hardest goal to live by.

And I tell ya, its been rough lately.

and scheduled an appointment with an addiction counselor last week. My appointment was this afternoon and I officially started Suboxone maintenance today. The medication was intense, and in many ways it was like the first time I used heroin, including a bit of nausea. I’ve already went through cold turkey detox twice now, and actually had weened myself off of H but had been using a combination of demerol, morphine sulfate, and vicodin for wisdom teeth pain. This seems to be holding me pretty well, but even if this doesn’t work out I can atleast say I gave it a shot.

Did everything wrong but I never got caught
So of course I would do it all over again

Other than looking “cool” to goth/emo/badboy retards and making you think you look cool in front of everyone else, which are both slight self-esteem boosts atleast, there’s no benefit to smoking. As a (weak) CNS Depressant Nicotine is both physically and psychologically addictive, but just barely.

9 years of smoking under my belt before I decided to quit, up until that point I had never wanted to. Went cold turkey, had some minor withdrawal symptoms for about 2-3 days, although at the time I thought it was torture. Nicotine addiction is all about willpower. If you believe that you can’t quit, you’re right.

If ya think smoking is bad, give opiate dependence a try :)

You can’t always get a-what you want
But if you try sometime, you just might find
You just might find
You get what you need

Cracks in the ceiling, crooked pictures in the hall
Counting and breathing, I’m leaving here tomorrow
They don’t know, I’d never do you any good
Laughing is easy, I would…
If I could

Ain’t gonna worry, just live ‘til you die
I wanna drown with no-where
To fall into the arms of someone
There’s nothin’ to save
& I know
You live ‘til you die

Losin’ A feelin’ that I couldn’t give away
Counting and breathing, disappearing in the fade
They don’t know, I’d never do you any good
Stoppin’ and stayin’, I would…
If I could

between parenthood and seeing niagra falls on the list of things that everyone needs to experience atleast once before they die.

6 years, no TV.

not as good as Atlas Shrugged, but still worth reading