So recently I eradicated a few people from my circle of friends. The old me, the one who needed people to feel worthy, would have let this childish and hurtful behavior slide. But not anymore. I have realized recently that I AM worthy. I Am loved. So fuck them.
InkGirl's Life List
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1. be myself
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2. get snakbite piercings
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3. make it through college
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4. finish "Crime and Punishment"
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5. clean my room
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6. learn to like my father
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7. quit caring what other people think
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8. forgive my mother for fucking me up
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9. learn to draw
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10. register to vote
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11. make a list of 100 things that make me happy
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12. buy a bong
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13. read Obama's blueprint for change
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14. decorate my room
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15. sleep at night and not during the day
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16. own everything I can relating to Elliott Smith
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17. read Obama's book
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18. set myself free
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19. Fill a bottle with water from the Pacific Ocean and empty it into the Atlantic Ocean
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20. see the dresden dolls
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21. get all the tattoos I have planned
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22. make a video for youtube
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23. Read the Bible
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24. Give blood
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25. learn to drive
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26. Realize that some people are never going to be the people you thought they might be and be ok with that
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27. travel across America
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28. gauge my ears
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29. see the aurora borealis
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30. Wake up at dawn and take a walk while the city's asleep
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31. have a picnic, on the beach, at night
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32. be on the national bone marrow donor registry
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33. send a message in a bottle
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34. meet these people
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35. visit as many places as I can
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36. slowdance in the rain
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37. get a mohawk
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How I did it: My struggle with finding happiness has lasted for roughly three years. I dealt with two failed relationships, moving, drug use, multiple suicide attempts, and issues with my bipolar disorder. For all but the last few months, I tried so hard to be happy that the sheer work I put into being happy made me UNhappy. This may not work for everyone, but for me working to be happy just didnt work. So once I stopped trying to "fix" myself, I reali… Read how I did it…
How I did it: I met someone not too long ago and started dating. I have never been overly confident in my kissing abilities but he told me almost immediately that I was an amazing kisser and he loved kissing me, ect. After hearing things like that for a few days, I realized that it wasn't that I was ever a bad kisser. No, it had more to do with my lack of confidence. Once i realized that, I suddenly became "better" at it because I wasn't worried … Read how I did it…
Well well well… finals are, well, finally here. I think I may actually pass all my classes this semester. I’m glad that i figured out what was important to me… but I just wish that it hadnt taken so long. Here’s to next semester!!
It’s been awhile since i’ve added to the list…
33) realizing who my REAL friends are (even though it hurts)
34) Connor
35) making new friends
36) falling in love
