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So stage fright has always been a big issue for me. I most definitely don’t act, but I do sing, and I occasionally have to speak in front of people, which I absolutely dread. For a long time, I refused to sing in front of anyone. I’m not sure why, I’ve just never enjoyed being the focus of anyone’s attention, and I never really thought I was all that good to start with. My boyfriend was the one who first encouraged me, and after more than a year of his convincing me of my talent, I finally talked myself into auditioning for the school chorus. Even that audition, in front of one person, brought on shaking hands, racing pulse, the whole nine yards. But I made the chorus, and I now feel pretty good singing with a group. We haven’t done any performances, but just making it through practice is pretty good. I still doubt myself quite a bit, and I still get shaky singing by myself, but it’s not as bad as it used to be. Ultimately, I want to feel really comfortable doing small solos in front of a group.

I got scales, intervals, and learned Mary Had a Little Lamb and the first few notes of Fur Elise. Might be easier if my fingers actually fit on the stupid little keyboard, but hey. I’m actually learning something :).

That June deadline has been pushed back a bit. I admit it… I dropped the ball.Both our horses are fully pastured all year, and I feel bad about starting her back at work when she’s already sweaty from just being outside. So I’ve decided that I’m going to wait until the weather cools off, and then we’re back on schedule. Unfortunately, I’m not sure exactly when that will be, so I can’t set a specific time goal. BUT I am determined to do this, I’ve kinda figured out exactly why it hasn’t happened before, and I’ve realized what I need to do to make it happen.