Lately I have been struggling with where I am in life. I haven’t been able to decide what I want to do ‘when I grow up’ mainly because I don’t have one unique skill that I can use, and mainly because I studied a very general field of study at university.
Two nights ago I realised that in being a talented writer and a highly technical person, I am incredibly lucky. I also realised that in wanting to have many different careers, I am not limiting myself, but just expressing my many passions. I finally realised that it’s ok to want to be a psychologist, a copywriter, a lawyer, a trainer, a manager… and be scared to just focus on one goal. It’s scary because it feels like you’re going to limit yourself to that forever and ever.
I sat myself down and outlined the jobs I thought would make me happy and they’re all in my current field of expertise. Because contrary to what my low self-esteem tells me, I am good at what I do and I will get far. It’s a bit late for me to suddenly become a psychologist. But there’s nothing stopping me from indulging in my passion for psychology in my spare time. Or photography. Or copywriting.
So, instead of running away from my life, I am going to embrace it. This is who I am. I don’t know everything, I make mistakes but I learn from them. I want to be an IT Manager, a Business Analyst, a Technical Training Manager or something in that field. Writing is my skill and in a few years, networks, training and information systems should be in my toolbox as well..
It’s hard not to have a finite goal and sometimes I do feel a bit directionless. But what I have told myself is that I am skilling myself for a destination and the journey is half the fun.