Ireallylovedhim

so christmas was tough!!! we were supposed to get married on christmas eve, but i stayed busy and i got throught it!!! I’ve seen him a couple of times now, and I hate it!! But I can look at where we were, where I am and where he is and am much happier with my life…it’s going places, and his…well its just not…and I can finally see that I am probably much better without him!!! But it still hurts!

My fiance and I have been broken up for 9 months, and I know this is supposed to get easier, but its only getting harder!! I cry myself to sleep every night, and almost every morning I wake up because I am having yet ANOTHER dream about him and I’m crying again. I have gone on a few dates but then I feel guilty and tell them I’m sorry but I cant… But he’s seeing someone else, so whencan i?