I'm doing 10 things
I can almost braid ma hair!
I’m Okay at it I wanna be Fantabulious!
ItAlsoScarsMyHeart's Life List
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1. stop cutting myself
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2. Be in a goood realationship where I am happy, preferably with this hotty in 5th period class
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3. Explain to my Dad that because he drinks and threatens to abuse me he is hurting me and making me cut
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4. Learn how to play the guitar better
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5. Learn how to braid my hair
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6. Be happy
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7. kiss this guy!
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8. Stop Cutting
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9. Get advice and help that I need
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10. stop feeling so emotionless
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How I did it
It made me
Proud and Happy 
How I did it: I'm experimenting with my apperence. I was trying to get this emo guys attention. Yesterday I watched my friend apply eyeliner. So today I applied it so well! I can do it now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YEAH!!!!!!! Thnx fo readin! :) Read how I did it…
It made me
happy
How I did it: I realized that I do have a lot of stress. With an alcoholic parent that use to hit me when I was little. I also have stress in school. So I talked to my therapist cousin and she recomeneded a great therapist. I have only have 1 session, but I see progress. Read how I did it…
Recent entries
Burning pain in my arms,
Stops the burning tears.
Slicing the skin calms my doubts,
And helps erase my fears.
The anger is so strong at times,
And the pain becomes to much.
And I long to feel the calmness,
Of the knife’s forgiving tender touch.
As I watch the blood pour,
My sanity sours.
And I long to feel the pain once more.
To those that do not do this,
I probably sound insane.
But this is the only way I know how…
To ease the blinding pain.
By Ebeth016, Jan 17, 1999
HI everyone!
SO as u can probably tell I am a cutter. I don’t use glass or anything like that! NO I use my nails a tare my skin. I have many many cuts on my fingers and I’m sad and scared! Nobody suspects a thing. Noone nos how I fell. I hav cit my arm twice by using a Diet Pepsi can. I’m really scared ov wat I’m doing to miself. teh only 2 ppl that know about this are mi 2 friends. 1 is ov them is a cutter like me but the other was vey scared when I told her what I’m doing to miself. So I lied and said that I’m not doing it anymore. The only thing that I don’t get is why I can’t talk to anyone about the certain issue that makes me do this! Everything else is out in the open! I’m just scared and I feel alone. This is really scary! Sometimes I think why am I doing this to miself? I really want to stop but it’s like a drug once u start u just can’t stop! I wanna tell someone why I do this but I can’t trust anyone! I feel alone even though I know I won’t be. can someone please help me an teach me a tecnique to stop!
