I can almost braid ma hair!
I’m Okay at it I wanna be Fantabulious!
Burning pain in my arms,
Stops the burning tears.
Slicing the skin calms my doubts,
And helps erase my fears.
The anger is so strong at times,
And the pain becomes to much.
And I long to feel the calmness,
Of the knife’s forgiving tender touch.
As I watch the blood pour,
My sanity sours.
And I long to feel the pain once more.
To those that do not do this,
I probably sound insane.
But this is the only way I know how…
To ease the blinding pain.
By Ebeth016, Jan 17, 1999
SO as u can probably tell I am a cutter. I don’t use glass or anything like that! NO I use my nails a tare my skin. I have many many cuts on my fingers and I’m sad and scared! Nobody suspects a thing. Noone nos how I fell. I hav cit my arm twice by using a Diet Pepsi can. I’m really scared ov wat I’m doing to miself. teh only 2 ppl that know about this are mi 2 friends. 1 is ov them is a cutter like me but the other was vey scared when I told her what I’m doing to miself. So I lied and said that I’m not doing it anymore. The only thing that I don’t get is why I can’t talk to anyone about the certain issue that makes me do this! Everything else is out in the open! I’m just scared and I feel alone. This is really scary! Sometimes I think why am I doing this to miself? I really want to stop but it’s like a drug once u start u just can’t stop! I wanna tell someone why I do this but I can’t trust anyone! I feel alone even though I know I won’t be. can someone please help me an teach me a tecnique to stop!