ItsMeOfCourse

1) Calling cards
—Will prove useful overseas.
2) Write snail-mail letters
—Everyone likes a hand-written card. It will show he other person that you were worth his or her time. I like to include stickers on the outside and some shaped confetti on the inside. Maybe a little spritz of my perfume for comfort. My bf likes that.
3) Webcam
—VERY useful for those days when you just want to whack off. I’M NOT KIDDING. I plan to get one in order to alleviate our sexual tension built up over the time we don’t see each other.
4) Email
—Useful for sending eCards and pictures and updates and things.
5) Care packages
—fill with pictures, poems, letters, little things that you share together. Maybe even food like cookies or something.

My boyfriend and I will be living on opposite coasts for a little while. We agreed to try and meet up somewhere in between where we live so that we can both experience a new place together instead of just bouncing from one home to another (where we live with our parents and don’t have much privacy).

This is the design of my potentially fourth tattoo (I still have yet to get my third, but I have the design for it). I am half Mexican and I wanted something kind of Azteca in nature, but still modern and graphic-designy. I like this because It represents my Mexican heritage with the Skull representing the Day of the Dead, in the style of Aztec art what with the adornments on the back of the skull. I found this design as a graphic on a t-shirt and it already had the roses around it. I figured I’d just keep the roses to keep it feminine. Everything will be in black and grey EXCEPT for the roses, which will be a light pink. I was thinking about putting it on my left shoulderblade, but it’s still being debated.

Ive been reading alot of books about codependency and self esteem and I feel that I am getting the most out of “Claiming Your Self Esteem: A Guide Out of Codependency, Addiction, and Other Useless Habits” by Carolyn M. Ball. Yesterday (before the book arrived via UPS) I was having a non-stop cry fest and the overwhelming feeling of not being able to help myself out of my negative behavior and thoughts of punishing myself for having acted codependent the previous night. That book is a godsend. Its got exercises and other tools to help people change their perspectives in life.

Today I actually started to do things that needed to get done without constantly thinking why my bf isn’t calling me and why things aren’t working out for me. I’m starting to believe that I AM capable of accomplishing things without the help or need for approval of others.

Baby steps!