Iwantobespecial




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Iwantobespecial's Life List

  1. 1. Keep being a good mom even when I'd like to run & hide...
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    3 people
  2. 2. point me towards my destiny
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    1 person
  3. 3. live passionately
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    5,659 people
  4. 4. Reveal my Divine feminine side, the Mary Magdalene in me
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    1 person
  5. 5. Make 2010 a year of transformation!
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    0 people
  6. 6. practice what I preach
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    68 people
  7. 7. make a difference
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    7,170 people
  8. 8. surrender
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    25 people
  9. 9. share the spiritual properties of herbs
    2 entries . 6 cheers
    1 person
  10. 10. live simply
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    3,264 people
  11. 11. sell my house
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    579 people
  12. 12. Create the life I want to live
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    89 people
  13. 13. be happy
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    24,865 people
  14. 14. lips to lips every day for the next 50 years...
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    1 person
  15. 15. keep the right and left side of my brain balanced
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    1 person
  16. 16. write more letters
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    1,846 people
  17. 17. read a poem and share it
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    1 person
  18. 18. Share Photographs 2010
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    1 person
  19. 19. learn the drums
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    134 people
  20. 20. join the local slow food movement and start buying local produce
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    1 person
  21. 21. hug trees and kiss flowers
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    1 person
  22. 22. stop wasting time online
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    14 people
  23. 23. have more dinner parties
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    135 people
  24. 24. make alchemical herbal tinctures
    3 entries
    1 person
  25. 25. understand my molecules of emotion
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    1 person
  26. 26. post random questions daily and see if anyone plays with me and answers them :)
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    359 people
  27. 27. record my dreams
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    336 people
  28. 28. Change the Energy
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    1 person

How I did it
How to sleep through the night without waking every hour
It took me
6 months
It made me


How to fall in love
It took me
1 day
It made me


Recent entries
live passionately (read all 5 entries…)
Empty nesting..

Stop this train
I want to get off and go home again
I can’t take the speed it’s moving in
I know I can’t
but honestly
won’t someone stop this train..

Had a talk with my old man
said help me understand
he said turn 68, you’ll renegotiate
don’t stop this train
don’t for a minute change the place you’re in..

once in a while when it’s good
it’ll feel like it should
and they’re all still around
and you’re still safe and sound
and you don’t miss a thing
‘til you cry when you’re driving away in the dark singing

stop this train
I want to get off and go home again
I can’t take the speed it’s moving in
I know I can’t
but now I see
I’m never gonna stop this train

John Mayer



surrender (read all 3 entries…)
I don't want to be special anymore...

I just want to be.
It was hard to choose what heading to put this under. Surrender fits the best, for actually..this is the epitome of surrender for a type A personality-ex wall street bond trader.
These are the guys I work with at a wholesale nursery. 20 or so, and me. The only female.
I am in charge of the perennial area. Together, we unload trucks. When we sell the plants, we load them back up again.
I couldn’t be successful without each one of them. Most of the guys are from other countries, here to make a better life. Spanish speaking. Really hard workers. I’ve been referred to as Wendy, they are all in their 20’s and me in my early 50’s. While we work we have discussions about family, life, love. They come to me for advice, and in turn I’ve started cooking for them. I love it. They love it. Living closer to the earth, hard physical labor, and a simple life.
I surrender to it graciously. Gratefully.



hug trees and kiss flowers (read all 11 entries…)
The Copper Beech

Immense

gray and gray and gray and gray

entirely itself
it wore the yard like a dress
with limbs low enough for me to enter the skirt
I climbed the crooked ladder to where
I could lean against the trunk and
practice being alone
One day
I heard the rustling sound before I saw it’s tears
fall darkening the sidewalk
sitting close to the center
I heard them hitting the low leaves
watching it happen without it happening to me



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