Iwanttobehappy11

There’s so many thoughts i have right now that I would like to say.
I think i have social anxiety. I keep everything bottled up inside. I hold myself back from a lot of things in school. I never say or do anything because im afraid of being judged. I know part of it has to do with me having no confidence in my self. I have absolutely no one to talk about my problems or anyone to hang out with. I just dont know what to do anymore. School starts in less than 5 days and Im scared to death. I dont want people looking at me. I dont want to go in a classroom alone with nobody in there that i know. Every friend i have ever had has faded away or we just stopped talking. My life is not fair. Everything about it. The only thing im grateful for is me and my family’s health. I wish people would take the time to get to know me.

i wish i wasnt so underdeveloped.
im only 100 pounds and im turning 16 and i hate it. and its not like i dont eat because i do.
There is just so many things i dont like about myself. Everything from head to toe. I hate my face. its small. i have a bump on my nose. i have small lips. since im skinny i have no curves.
im puerto rican but people mistake me for other races all the time. it is very insulting. the only people who tell me im pretty is my family. and its not even that. my mother. my sisters always tell me im ugly. because they both have boys all over them. People are always focused on losing weight and they forget about the under weight ones. It hurts just as much to be made fun of being skinny as it is to be called “fat.” The only thing i like about myself is my hair because its curly. but sometimes i dont even like it. its frizzy all the time and can never stay one way. i hate my teeth, i think i may be getting braces. im like 5’3. This is just terrible. The way i feel about myself gets in the way of everything. i care to much of what people think. i have never had a boyfriend. and i dont have alot of friends. maybe if i were pretty….i DONT like looking in the mirror.