1. Do a load of Laundry.
2. Devote “at-least” 2 hours to art or playing music.
3. Work on finding a college.
“You know when you find it
In your darkest hour, you strike gold
A thought clicks, not the be-all end-all”
-Alice In Chains
The Future is Horrifying, even “Pet·ri·fy·ing..“
It has been a struggle for a little over XIX years, and yet these eyes still meld from tomorrow and the sun it brings to shine.
Feeling helpless in thought, questions such as; Will I ever have a significance to another being in this world? Can I bring happiness to others? Can I find or achieve inner-strength? arise.
There is no evidence, to know if what makes me happy is to make others happy, but the feeling is so pure.
If I do find this “Inner-Strength,” to call my own, I hope it is not selfish. I hope It will make others happy, and does not jade the feelings and thought of others as it has done me.
It feels as if there is not a horizon for me to set my eyes upon, let alone tomorrows Sun shine.