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I barely know this girl. I’ve asked her to be in my movie, and play my character’s love interest. Her schedule is making it very difficult, and when I emphatically told her today that I HAD to get her scenes done this week, she had this attitude! I’d never seen that, at least directed at me. I know the problem is my fault, but why does it bother me that she reacted like that?!

I can’t let this go. I’m obsessive. I’ve got to boil this over in my mind over and over again. I won’t be relieved until I am dead.

Do I bother people? Pretty much everybody I come in contact with loves me, thinks I’m okay. I just can’t get that from this girl. She’s quiet, but I can’t make her laugh or anything. I feel like I’m an inch tall when she’s around.

Maybe I’ve got an unhealthy crush on her and am in denial. I don’t know. I’ve just got to forget about her…

I destroyed my input router today with a monkey wrench. It was a ton of fun. For once, it did what I wanted. It’s in a billion pieces now!

I shouldn’t have gone that far though. I just hate technology that doesn’t work.

I’ve been practicing in my laundry room since it’s the only floor that won’t ruin the plates. It’s so weird at first. Everytime your toes or heels touch the floor, they make a TAP sound. Who knew? The point is, it’s alot harder than it looks to make the sounds you want. After a while though, you get used to it, and it’s a blast!

I’m not Gene Kelly yet. I’m not even a beginner yet. But it’s fun.